sophiemarie.b - hey little girl (live) [official lyric video]

by age 8 my dad was out of my life entirely. my mom would feed me lies about him. she made me believe that he was the one who abandoned us. with no one around to protect me, thats when the abuse started. I’m all choked up i cannot talk I’ve got a fucked up brain, fucked up thoughts writing songs was my therapy. I wrote the first verse and chorus while still living with her in october 2016. Thought i was okay but then i guess not I hope you know that this is your fault shame, anxiety, depression, self-doubt, anger...it was piling up. something had to change. so after 8 years of being apart I messaged my dad from a secret email address. (It would have been very bad if she found out.) he got me a secret phone (i put my best friends picture on it just in case) and we began planning my escape. Want you to feel bad when you go to sleep Hope you’re sad when you remember me Hope you’re feeling bad for all you did to me And hope you lie there in your misery the plan was to begin living with him full time by march, which felt like a long 5 months away. Hey little girl - You never believed there’s a ghost inside of you But it’s hidden too deep would the hopeful, happy, ambitious woman inside of me still be there when I was finally free? Hey little girl - You never imagined you’d get a little older You’ll get abandoned Hey little girl - You know smoking kills You don’t really care cause you love how it feels Hey little girl - You’re falling apart You don’t really care ‘cause they broke your heart abuse -> rebellion -> breakdown. this was the whole song at first. so I posted a clip on instagram as a failed cry for help. but less than a week later I got worried that my mom would see it and took it down. then in dec 2016, with 3 months still to go, my mother let it rip in front of the house, for all of my neighbors to see. bruised and crying I ran to my neighbors house and called my dad “we need to do this now”. my neighbors harbored me for a week while my dad prepared to get custody, as he did later that week. I will never forget the feeling the day I saw the police serving my mother the papers. a warm rush went through my body as she screamed in disbelief. within weeks i was on a beautiful beach vacationing with my dad for new year’s, when I found my song on YouTube, but under another person’s name. who the hell is Quinn Quinn? for those of you who don’t know, this girl on YouTube named Quinn Quinn ripped the audio from my instagram and reposted it as her song. it went kinda viral, on musically too. I was angry and helpless. who fucking does that? whatever! my only defens was to finish the song and post a video of me singing it in front of the piano. by this time, i’m free from my mother, which is why the second verse and bridge come from a whole new perspective. I’m fighting for all that I have lost It’s my time to show who's boss I’ve waited in the dark too long I’ve got this now, so just stay strong at 16 I finally had a chance. It was time to start going after my dreams. (I still tell myself this every day.) I know you won’t believe until I’m up on stage Make me bleed when you don't get your way in the mornings she would claim to not remember what she had done. “i hope you wake up and realize what a good mother i am to you" she would say. what a fuking joke. I hope you're scared when you remember me I hope you lie there in your misery Peace out you miserable bitch. Been in and out of recovery Remember when I could hardly breathe Sat in front of mirrors thinking to myself Can't get any clearer, what I’m doing to myself its been five years and i’m feeling okay. “You got this...you’re good” i like to tell myself. but sometimes it gets tough and i go back down to feeling like shit. I know i need to forgive her in order to fully move on, but its hard right now. i hope my story helps children and adults around the world recognize the dangers of child abuse and parental alienation. remember, there’s always someone you can go to for help. I just wish i contacted him sooner. - soph

parents: ''stop being childish, i've had worse as a child'' Strangers: ''It's okay. I understand.''

I love how my parents tell me that “everybody has bad days” but strangers will talk with me for hours saying they understand me

The fact I listened to this song for 4 years. And every year it hits more

I’m pregnant right now at 18. I may not have been prepared for this. But my kids will never know the pain of this song or other like it. I will be nothing like my parents. My kids will be loved and brought up right. They will be listened to and understood. To my future kids. I love you. I’ll always be here for you.

Kid: 'depressed' Mom: it's that stupid phone Kid: that phone is the only thing stopping me from ending my life

When GEN z become parents, let's promise to be the best parents the universe and multi verse has ever seen. We will understand our kids and wont put them down when they go through sh*t

I hope you know that through the years, this has been my fight song. Through every abuse from my ex, every abuse from my mother, every day I was further indoctrinated into my family’s cult, and every self abuse I could imagine to make myself feel “normal”. It’s been the most challenging trials of my life, but every time I hear this song, I break down. It makes me feel strong again, it’s been one of my emotional lifelines. When I was 12, 13, 14, I never thought I would be around to see the next birthday. I’m so proud to say that I’ve been able to persevere and that my 17th birthday is in 71 days. You’ve genuinely changed my life with this song, with this message, with you being powerful enough to share your story. Thank you

I love when your parents say “You will grow out of it” and a girl who doesnt even know me that well listens to me and understands me

"Suicide doesn't get rid of the pain, it gives it to someone else." - Random Person

this is the kind of sickness that isn’t excused at school this is the kind of sickness that no one ever notices this is the kind of sickness that goes unnoticed until it kills

F= Fading slowly I= Internally crying N= Never felt more alone E= Every night I cry myself to sleep

When I listen to this song, I like to imagine I'm talking to my younger self when life was simple and happy. Before the depression, before the confusion, before the trauma...

Society: be yourself Also society: no, not like that

It’s hilarious that parents say we’re to young to feel pain, be tired, depressed, feel love, know our sexuality.. we are, but that just shows Society is a messed up thing, but it’s even funnier when they ask what’s wrong like they think they can fix something not many people ever feel, they say get off our phones cus they could live without them, well they didn’t have to live through raping, depression, bullying, and so much more, we’re to young for a lot of things we feel but life’s not fair in that way, if it was... every one would be in heaven but no.. we’re down here in hell where every single day we wonder if we matter, make a difference or even exist as far as I’m concerned

just a few years ago I was crying like a baby to this song, still am, just like.. a more reasonable adult.. happy New Years everyone 🤍

I’ve known this whole song since I was 8. I’m 13 now, still know every lyric, I heard my sister listening to it, a month later she tried to end it.

They don’t notice: Your pain, Your tears, Your thoughts, Your corruption, But what they notice? YOUR MISTAKES!

its funny to see strangers understand your pain more then your own friends

The fact that I’m 14 now and have been relating to this for way to long is sad and the fact that this song is literally becoming how my life is