escape everything // dark ambient music mix

Hope you enjoy the new video my friends. As always, thank you for being here.

I’m leaving this comment here, so that in a week or month when someone has liked it, I’ll be reminded to come back here and feel again 🖤

If you listen to it when you're happy, it's peaceful, if you listen to it when you're sad, it hurts...💙

My dad of 45 passed away around 6.5 months ago, my grandpa of 72 passed away 5 months ago. I'm only 14 its really hard dealing with this, but these playists help me alot. Thank you <3

To the random person scrolling the comments, God bless you, I hope you find peace, love and many a blessing with what ever you find yourself doing. I pray that God looks after and cares for your and that you find God at any period. I love you, my Brother/Sister in Christ, chin up, chest out, keep on ballin

My buddy of 20 committed suicide last year October. Today is his 21 birthday, and I miss him. The songs make me remember all the good and bad times I had with him. I will never forget you Rohan❤. EDIT: Hello everyone I just want to say thanks for all the love and support. It really helped me to know that their are people that can relate to the pain of losing someone you loved, especially in such a way. So I just wanted everyone to know that I'm still going on as best I can.

To the 1% of people who see this comment, I just want to say that you are SPECIAL! I know sometime's life is hard - grief, tragedy, happiness, and joy are all part of life!! I just want you all to know that it will get better! I wish you all stay beautiful, happy, and have a wonderful moment of peace! Love - Meditate with Nature yeaaaah

To the person reading this, Good Luck! Don't stress, everything will be fine. No matter what difficulty you are facing right now, you can overcome it! You are strong and brave ❤

Hi! It's been two years, since I saw this channel. Let's put it this way: I had a difficult experience. I felt like I was completely alone. Without family, friends. I wanted to escape, to find my own world in which I could live without worries. I remember that there were not so many videos, so I put some tracks on repeat. I listened to this music, blamed myself for being idle and daydreaming instead of doing work. 2 years have passed, I abandoned watching this channel, trying to emerge from depression. Now I understand that dreaming isn't bad. Sometimes I even think that we want to live thanks to dreams and goals. I saw you again in YouTube recommendations. I don't know who created the channel, the number of these people, gender or age, but regardless of these signs, it's time to say: thank you for creating a channel with atmospheric music and pictures in the background :) Dreaming is not bad. It calms and develops our creativity. Thanks again. I wish you good luck in all areas of activity! :>

Late night writing. 11:56 Im not sad, depressed, anything of the sorts. I do want something. Everybody does. Im lying in my bed with a cramp in my elbow, phone sitting in my hand. I think, of questions. Common ones, Whats your favorite color, food, What do you want to be when you get older? Where do you want to live? What are your talents? Common, yeah, but for some reason those questions scare me. Maybe its because questions like those are about the future, and i tell myself im not scared of the future, maybe I am. And then we go back to what we want. I realized I wasn't a emotional person, either that or I have the days where i explode with it. But often I dont feel sad, multiple emotions happen across the day. I didn't ever really wanted to be "something" at all, nothing that people had made seemed to fit perfectly. Maybe to make something and shape it or do my own sort of something with its own rules and own becoming. But thats impossible. "What do you want in life?" The question you ask yourself yet never make eye contact with. I think im still trying to answer that. But there isn't just one thing I want my life to be about. I want peace and I want darkness in my mind I want sad feelings and happy ones, excited and even butterflies in the stomach nervous one's too. I want friends i can rant to on a random saturday night who I can support. I want large overgrown northwest forests and raindrops. I want an ambience that lives all around me, like the feeling of driving at night or being on a rooftop looking at the colorful city lights or the burning and crackling of a bonfire on the beach. I want a world where i can say the right things at the right times but also mess up, and thats fine too. I want a world where we stop trying and actually do. Where we use our minds instead of our tanks and use our kindness instead of our race. I want an imperfect world with imperfect people who can love those imperfect people who can love their own self. I want a silence that will spread out and pull back in again, like tides of the sea on a not-so-windy day. But most of all i want everybody to have that. I want everybody to feel sad, and happy and have fun and scream and cry and have that silence, the silence that shows them that life of theirs. That silence is a memory I realized. And its beautiful.

i just cant say how grateful i am. games, music like this, friends... Family. those things help me, and i think they help you too. The next text... is for relieving some of my stress. When i was born, my father left me with my sister and mother, i saw it like something bad, but i were a kid so i didnt care. throght all those years the only one who actually cared for me was my sister, she took care of me, she loved me, she gave me attention. she had her own responsabilities... so she couldnt be there always, and my mom abused me phisically, verbally and psychologically. She said she loved me, i wasnt sure, it was all a manipulation for me to do whatever she wanted, i didnt had freedom. I couldn't think by myself, just like a puppet... it was like that everytime, even my sister got abused, she was gone when she was 17, going to live with our dad, who sent us money everytime... Money that our mother never gave us, she used it for her own benefits not caring about us. when my sister was gone, i was alone then, our father always came to visit us the weekends, but my mother, she filed a false complaint that he was abusing us, we couldnt see him for 4 years. after my sister left... i became aware of what her burden was, my mother always made her to clean and take care of the house, take care of me and to cook, even if she had Highschool. I was really angry with my mom, but i chose to calm down and believe that she was still good, after all she was my mom. My mother finded another man, and i got a new sister, i didnt knew how to feel, it would... The cicle would repeat. but then my mom got sick, she didnt care about her health, she smoked, drinked, eated trash food, and it got worse with a illness. i was sent throught a lot of houses of friends of her, not to my father because she didnt want to... i missed her. After 3 months, my father found me and with the police, they took me, and made me feel home. Then i spent a whole year with my father... i discovered a lot of things i didnt want to. my mother used to abuse him phisically, verbally and blamed him of a lot of things he didnt do. he didnt leave because my sister was there, and when they got the notice i was coming, my mother tried to abort me. My father stopped her. when i was born, my father did the best he could to be there, when i was 3, he left because of the toxicity of my mother and that place. My sister endured a lot, and so my father did, my mother wasnt good as i thinked so, but i was still a kid, i still loved her, trying to forgive. after that year, my mom came over my dad's house and made a trouble, she wanted to take me back, almost hurting my sister, i was scared, confused and sad. then i was forced to face a judicial situation. I didnt know anything, i was super confused and scared, my depression haunted me all that time, back when i was with my mom i used videogames to escape reality. To escape fear and sadness, my mother made me feel worthless and useless, with every fail i had, it made it worst. I made the wrong decision in the judicial situation, i was still young, it was to decide who should take care of me, and i chose to be a week with my mom and i week with my dad. I was confused because when i said that my father got really sad. My wish was made, but not for too long. My mother took advantage and took full custody of me, then she used me more, i falled on a deep hole of darkness, she made it again, she made all of us suffer, then i saw my little sister, who was now 1 year old, and i saw something i wanted to protect, to love. after a lot more of suffering, my mother fell sick again. This time was serious, she got really bad, and my dad took care of me. I was enjoying being with him then, back to being actually okay and safe. Then, i went to the hospital with some family members, i got to call my mom, i got the urge to cry. She said she was sorry for everything, that she would do better, she regretted her mistakes. I was crying when i said "its okay mom, i forgave you long ago." She promised me she would make everything better when she gets out of the hospital, and i smiled, a smile of pure joy and grattitude, i felt it, she was saying the truth, but i felt a int of sadness on her voice. Then the next 3 days i received the notice that. She died. She couldnt keep her promise. I fell on a deep depression then, and cried a lot, but not enough in her funeral. I couldnt keep up, and tried a lot of things to end everything, to return where i came from. And here i am, 2 years after all of that im still alive. With the help of my friends and family i made it, im still depressed, they say, but im trying to not focus on that, this time ill focus on me, i always took attention to everyone, except me, i never thinked by myself or for myself. Its time for a change, im better. Its hard, but i will keep up and stay strong, no matter how many times i fall, i will stand up, and rise once again to shine. No matter what. And i shall fulfill that promise she made to me, with something, she wanted me to be. I still like to go away from reality and come to a world without worries, this playlist helped me. And you did too, if you readed it all, thanks, i mean it. I just wanted to tell y'all. You're amazing, keep up and... live, with all your might, love those ones you care for, cause' they'll be gone one day. And as my father said, "You never know how much you appreciate someone, until they're gone." Im... trying to not feel im victimizing me, i hope i wrote all this in the right place. ...after all im just an ordinary teenager! Thank you for reading, thanks for everything. P.D: Im sorry if something isnt writted right, im a beginner at English and a South American!

The one thing I miss the most in life is a real hug. Sure, friends will give you a quick hug with a pat on the back, but a true embrace is rare to come by. A hug that lasts longer than just a couple of seconds. The longing for human touch can make one feel so absent and disconnected from reality and lower one's sense of self worth. The feeling of being in a relationship for years with someone you loved so much at the time and may even still love and then, after all is gone, trying to figure out how to sleep comfortably without holding onto them. Only to hold a pillow in hopes that it fills the emptiness of the space that you once held onto. God the bed feels so big now. Which side do I even sleep on? Having spent so much time together that everything reminds you of them. The smells, tastes, sounds and experiences. Even a simple routine such as going to the local coffee shop and ordering a certain drink. Trying to order yours while remembering there's. Holding back the tears while taking a sip. Avoiding the memories and trying to repress them. Not knowing how to spend the hours that pass by in the hollow box we call a home or apartment, while trying to fill it with things to distract us. The substances we take to ease the pain and block out the intrusive thoughts. Only to come back and plague us further with the feeling of disappointment and self contempt the next day. Feeding the mental anguish furthermore. The contemplations of self harm, but denying yourself the pleasure of escape in order to avoid the pain and grief that you would place on the ones closest to you. The ones that only care when things are looking the most bleak and worry them when they finally notice. When it's too late and the person you once knew is gone. Do they only worry from guilt? Would they even care? Would they notice? But even still we would rather live in isolation and in pain rather than hurt them even though they may not deserve it. So we live alone. In the end we are the strongest. Living with such self disdain is not an easy feat. So where am I going with this message? Letting you know that you are not alone. Even if only feeling one of the emotions I spoke of. You are a stronger than you know, especially to have made it this far and if I were in front of you I would give you the one thing I miss the most. A hug and strong embrace. A connection that feels unobtainable. You are worth something. You are here for a purpose even if you haven't found it yet.

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To the person reading this, Good Luck! Don't stress, everything will be fine. No matter what difficulty you are facing right now, you can overcome it! You are strong and brave.

If more people listen to ambient music, our world would be a better place to live

Почти всегда когда я ложусь спать, я включаю музыку подобно этой, и всегда я вспоминаю своё детство. Особенно мне пришлось осознавать своё детство когда я прочитал название первой песни — нет пути назад...... Такое чувство что мне хочется сделать про это книгу, комикс, да даже фильм. И я хочу сообщить что нужно ценить своё время, даже если у вас оно плохое, иначе, вы будете как я, вспоминать своё детство, которое уже не получится вернуть..............

This is an edit sense my comment got alot of likes and is now the top comment on this video I can say this to alot of people life might not be worth living for these reasons for you so then make your own reasons if your younger than like 25 and especially under 18 idk what your worries are you have so much life infront of you don't fuck it up you should just be striving to make enough money to be comfortable enough to raise some kids and give them a good life while bettering yourself and the world so those kids can inherit something good don't let the world get to you to much you got this and I will say this again you have reasons to stay alive: 1. to make your parents proud 2. to conquer your fears 3. to see your family again 4. to see your favourite artist live 5. to listen to music again 6. to experience a new culture 7. to make new friends 8. to inspire 9. to have your own children 10. to adopt your own pet 11. to make yourself proud 12. to meet your idols 13. to laugh until you cry 14. to feel tears of happiness 15. to eat your favorite food 16. to see your siblings grow 17. to pass school 18. to get tattoo 19. to smile until your cheeks hurt 20. to meet your internet friends 21. to find someone who loves you like you deserve 22. to eat ice cream on a hot day 23. to drink hot chocolate on a cold day 24. to see untouched snow in the morning 25. to see a sunset that sets the sky on fire 26. to see stars light up the sky 27. to read a book that changes your life 28. to see the flowers in the spring 29. to see the leaves change from green to brown 30. to travel abroad 31. to learn a new language 32. to learn to draw 33. to tell others your story in the hopes of helping them 34. Puppy kisses. 35. Baby kisses (the open mouthed kind when they smack their lips on your cheek). 36. Swear words and the release you feel when you say them. 37. Trampolines. 38. Ice cream. 39. Stargazing. 40. Cloud watching. 41. Taking a shower and then sleeping in clean sheets. 42. Receiving thoughtful gifts. 43. “I saw this and thought of you." 44. The feeling you get when someone you love says, “I love you." 45. The relief you feel after crying. 46. Sunshine. 47. The feeling you get when someone is listening to you/giving you their full attention. 48. Your future wedding. 49. Your favorite candy bar. 50. New clothes. 51. Witty puns. 52. Really good bread. 53. Holding your child in your arms for the first time. 54. Completing a milestone (aka going to college, graduating college, getting married, getting your dream job.) 55. The kind of dreams where you wake up and can’t stop smiling. 56. The smell before and after it rains 57. The sound of rain against a rooftop. 58. The feeling you get when you’re dancing. 59. The person (or people) that mean the most to you. Stay alive for them. 60. Trying out new recipes. 61. The feeling you get when your favorite song comes on the radio. 62. The rush you get when you step onto a stage. 63. You have to share your voice and talents and knowledge with the world because they are so valuable. 64.Breakfast in bed. 65. Getting a middle seat in the movie theater. 66. Breakfast for dinner (because it’s so much better at night than in the morning). 67. Pray (if you are religious) 68. Forgiveness. 69. Water balloon fights. 70. New books by your favorite authors. 71. Fireflies. 72. Birthdays. 73. Realizing that someone loves you. 74. Spending the day with someone you 75. Opportunity to create meaningful and lasting relationships. 76. Potential to learn, grow, and evolve as a person. 77. Joy and happiness in the little things. 78. The power to inspire others. 79. The ability to create art, music, and other forms of self-expression. 80. To explore different cultures, traditions, and ways of life. 81. To make a positive impact on the environment and help protect the planet. 82. Experience the joys of parenthood and raise a family. 83. Learn new things and develop new skills. 84. Create a legacy that will outlive you. 85. Being wrapped up in a warm bed. 86. Cuddles 87. Holding hands. 88. The kind of hugs when you can feel a weight being lifted off your shoulders. The kind of hug where your breath syncs with the other person’s, and you feel like the only two people in the world. 89. Singing off key with your best friends. 90. Road trips. 91. Spontaneous adventures. 92. The feeling of sand beneath your toes. 93. The feeling when the first ocean wave rolls up and envelops your toes and ankles and knees. 94. Thunderstorms. 95. Your first (or hundredth) trip to Disneyland. 96. The taste of your favorite food. 97. The child-like feeling you get on Christmas morning. 98. The day when everything finally goes your way. 99. Compliments and praise. 100. to look on this moment in 10 years time and realize you did it. Ps : Never forget you are a beautiful person 💕 Life is so beautiful so live, l love you <3 101. Waiting for GTA6

This is not dark at all. This is magical

crazy how your mood changes the way you feel when listening to something. this video used to make me feel inspired when i listened, but today i feel the urge to scream and cry

This playlist gives me that feeling of holding in a cry in the back of your throat.