what it feels like to be a memory (playlist)

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"My life is just one constant battle between wanting to be alone, but not wanting to be lonely."

''Sometimes you will never know the value of a moment until it becomes a memory.'' -Dr. Seuss

We didn’t know we were making memories We were just having fun.

To anybody who's reading this, I pray that whatever is hurting you or whatever you are constantly stressing about gets better. May the dark thoughts, the overthinking, and the doubt exit your mind. May clarity replace confusion. May peace and calmness fill your life.

You know this playlist is going to be hard-hitting when it begins with Snowfall.

while listening to this playlist, I think of all the people who I don’t come in touch with anymore. It’s weird how they were a part of my life, but now they’re just in my memories that I replay in my head and nothing more. I wonder if they think of me the way that I think of them.

The worst pain isn't a cut or bruise, it's seeing those you considered so close turn into strangers

The part that sucks the most is you wanna love and care so hard, but it feels like being alone is better for a piece of mind.

Ahh yes.. The time socialising was easy The time you didnt care about school The time your home was healthy The time you never had to think about not having friends The time where we cried when we didnt get to watch more TV The time when we learned new things The time life was filled with color, rainbow and unicorns The time life felt like home The time life was worth living ... Will never be forgotten.

The most painful part in life is remembering the old good memories with people who are now changed

My Girlfriend of 7+ years is going through a mental health depreciation, she has recently been going through schizophrenia and she seems so distant from me. It's like she is being held hostage in her mind and the girl I remember is trying to find her way back to the surface, but in the blink of an eye, she is gone again. I miss her and I tell her this all the time, what kills me the most is when she says, "She misses herself too"... I just look to the future with hope that I can support her enough that she gets better and maybe someday she can be her real self again, for the past year I have watched her get progressively worse, it started with depression, and then it progressed into paranoia, she thought I was against her and everyone was conspiring to hurt her. The truth was, I was trying to work hard so we could have a better life together. And now it feels like we lost it all, she can't even have a full conversation with me anymore without returning to talking to herself. All I can do is hug her and give her a kiss and tell her that I'm here for her no matter what. She was my highschool crush and we found each other again 13 years later. We lived together in pure happiness for a few years, but ever since 2018 is when things started to take the turn for the worse. I am being as strong as I can be, because I'm not weak and I have a resolve that has been strengthened for decades, My patience is greater than most people that I know. There have been some dark days where I felt like giving up and just ending my life, but when I look at old photos and the memories we created, I think about if she hasn't given up, then why should I? When you love someone if they are worth fighting for then fight...even if you have to fight yourself ❤

What hits different is finding your old playlist and connecting with your inner child and realizing how broken you really became

Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened. -Some random guy

sometimes i forget how it even felt to be a child, i wish i had been able to enjoy my childhood for just a bit longer

“Sometimes the best memories are sad because you know they will never happen again.”

One of the life lesson I've learned. You will always be alone. People will leave u behind,you will leave people behind. Doesn't matter which one but the outcome is the same. At the end of it all,you will be alone. I've made peace with that fact. I welcome the cold,empty void with an open arm

the more i fail to remember my past, the more i realise how precious it is to my heart. it hurts to know that i am forgetting myself by the time i grow up. i am changing so fast and it feels like i'm betraying my older self, my inner child. (UPD: I had no idea so many people would resonate with my feelings. I wish we all will be happy someday)

The best memories are from the strangers you used to love.

Imagine listening to this, recalling memories with your father that passed away a year ago, laying in your bed,alone,at 2 am,broke,poor, jobless,went through everything,but never felt anything when he was alive, because he was like a shield. Goodbye Dad, I'll never forget about you, I'll keep fighting.