POV; why can't i be better [ vent playlist ]

- Time Stamps - 0:00 - 2:34 / alien blues - vundabar #1 2:34 - 6:56 / Television / so far so good - Rex Orange County #2 6:56 - 11:14 / Burning Pile - Mother Mother #3 11:14 - 16:14 / this side of paradise (slowed) - Coyote Theory #4 16:14 - 20:07 / Always Forever - Cults #5 20:08 - 22:23 / True Colors - Tom Odell #6 22:23 - 25:29 / Still Life - Sitcom #7 25:29 - 30:12 /After Dark - Mr.Kitty #8 30:12 - 31:59 / My mother wants me d3ad - Carolesdaughter #9 31:59 - 33:52 / What are you so afraid of - videoclub #10 33:52 - 38:27 / daddy issues - the neighborhood (i think) #11 38:27 - 42:20 / YKWIM - yot club #12 42:20 - 46:24 / idk im not sure srry #13 46:24 - 50:24 / idk abt this one either sorry #14 50:24 - 54:09 /dynasty -MIIA #15 if you know the songs that i dont tell me by saying like "oh like #13 is (song name)"

Just one hug, just one long ass hug. I don't care who it is. Just barge into my room and tell me I don't have to feel like this.

I can't be good enough.Cuz I'm being lazy, lazy because of no motivation. It's like a damn cycle.

“You don’t have to be PERFECT, or exceptionally GREAT, or even GOOD…” “BUT I DO! I HAVE TO BE ALL THOSE THING ALL AT ONCE!”

don’t you love it when you vent and someone says “i know how you feel”, proceeds to vent, and instead gets all of the comfort that you need.

It's so sad and disappointing to see myself like this. I had high expectations for myself, I'm nowhere near those expectations. I'd say I've hit rock bottom. I feel so drained. Pretending is getting harder and harder.

u know it's a good playlist when it starts with alien blues

It feels weird to say but seeing everyone in the comments coming out with their vent stories just makes me relieved because I know that I'm not the only one struggling all the time. For everyone who's reading this or is listening to this playlist, I just want you to know that you are valid and I support you. Nothing is your fault.

when you wanna cry but u can't cry anymore because there's no tears falling down and your heart just starts to hurt:>

I know why I can't be better. it's my fault, because I don't even try. I'm not proud of myself, this is a hell. a hell that I created, and now, I can't get out

Why can't I be better? I eat less, they worry. I eat too much, they yell. I spend too much time with them, they call me clingy. I spend too little time with them, they accuse me of spending too much time on my phone and pc. I spend just the right amount of time with them, they tell me I've done something wrong and I'm sucking up to them. I spend too much time on the pc, they yell and yell and yell. I spend too little time on the pc, they ignore me. Clean too much, they say I miss spots. Clean too little, I get berated and emotionally destroyed. Stay in my room too much, they accuse me of spending alone planning to run away. Stay out of my room as much as possible, I'm not using my room. Why can't I be better and be perfect for them?

I was pretty proud of myself because the teachers told me my grades were getting higher. I thought I was finally getting back on track. Then I saw a girl in my school who got rewarded for getting good grades every class, a perfect attendance, and receiving compliments from every teacher. I realized that I can’t even find motivation to practice violin, finish my work, or go to school on time. Even if I try hard, someone will always get more recognition and praise than I ever will. I find it funny how even after all the work I put in, I simply just gave up and quit in the process. I don’t see a point in trying any harder. I will keep doing the work, but i quit giving it my all. March 25, im making an edit. I fell in love with someone. I made friends. I just need to hold on a bit longer. I’ll be okay. Thanks for reading. May 7, hheheheh sooo I got scared of them leaving me and they thought I didn’t love them anymore so we’re kinda like not talking atm🥲🥲 but I’m doing ok love u hope u guys r doing good July 17, (mention of SH warning) Hi. Recently I got into cosplaying and it’s been fun. I still play the violin and I’ve been on the same two books for over a year now lol. Almost two. I’m going to a new school. Had someone fall in love with me but i cannot get over my other crush so I felt bad and told them to leave. I’m very interested in disturbing iceberg Videos and Crime podcasts. I also learned how to calm myself down when I’m having trouble just getting through the day. I don’t SH anymore and I don’t think about doing so anymore. Id say I made pretty good progress. I think I’ve been clean since.. Last December? It’s been awhile and I’m proud of myself. Please take care of yourselves. I believe in you.

My inquiries Who is that in the mirror? It is certainly not me Why am I trapped in this tortuous life? It is cold and unpleasant Was I not good enough? I tried my hardest Why can’t I be better? I thought I was doing so well Did I fail again? I always do Can I start over? I never wanted to end up like this Who am I? I don’t want to be here

I remember when I was a kid I used to tell myself “don’t get yelled at just be a good kid”

I’ve been so good at hiding emotions to the point no one believes me when I tell them how I really feel. It was because I looked so happy... it was a show, a set, a play. It was all an act. I want to be better, no one believes no so I can’t. Not my family or friends believe me. It’s crazy... Edit: I did not expect this to somewhat blow up… but I am truly grateful for the people in the comments that have a similar story as me and to hear theirs. I love you all and hope you are ok. It’s crazy to think 2.1k people feel the same way, just know your loved by me <3

It’s so sad how we’re all here maybe for different reasons but all to seek comfort maybe crying a little or a little much Those little parts of the songs Those little lyrics that just describe everything we never knew how to say regretting every mistake we have done Man I’m tired Can I sleep?

HEY!!!! if you're listening to this playlist in the first place, you're probably in a really bad emotional state. if you wanna talk, yell, or just distract yourself, im here for ya. remember, youre loved so much and you deserve only good things. take care

I really needed this rn. My mom literally is all on me about my grades not being perfect A's and my grandfather just yelled at me to suck it up and do better. They're the reason I escape to music, tiktok, youtube, wattpad, and AO3. Cause their all just so tiring sometimes. I'm not a perfect child like they wanted. But at least I'm not hard on myself.

This playlist just reminds me of every time I tried to open up to someone. They just say shit like, "Omg that sucks" or they try to make jokes about it. Like even my Mother does, for instance yesterday we were driving to the mall and she mentioned how there was being a children's hospital built. She proceeded to say "They'll help kids with stitches and stuff, and with self harm" both comments were pointed at me and I just pursed my lips while she proceeded to laugh. And my 'friends just laugh and tell me to get over it. People suck man.

To be honest I didn't even expect myself to lose so much confidence to compare myself to others and cry alot and it's just sad but it's like the only way to not think about these things is to listen to music or sleep