all i want - kodaline (slowed, rain, 1 hour+)

Those 3 dislikes are from people who are mentally stable Edit: thanks for the likes hehehehehehhhehehehhehehe edited on 4:39 Pm on a sat Mar 13

this makes me feel weirdly safe but torn at the same time...

This is random but I’m always the one who cuddles my friends, I hold them in my arms and I let them cry I make sure they are okay. But I’m never the one to be held and made sure that I’m okay, I just want the same love and affection that I show everyone.

For the ones who are in pain, worries, stress/suicidal thoughts etc. Just know you can overcome this anything is possible through God. He loves you so much give him all your problems. Your enough, u matter and worth so much!

i sang this song at my best friends funeral. she wasn't happy at all. one night she texted me saying 'i love you, dont forget me, because i wont forget you.' she was one of the only people who ever let me be myself. i love her so much. and i miss her so much. people need to realise that even though someone may SEEM happy, it doesnt necessarily mean they are. so dont do anything to make it worse. thank you everyone for all the love and kind words <3. 1 week today and it will be one year. stay happy and safe. i love you jess. rest easy love. edited at 2:28am on friday the 3rd of september 2021. its now december. im doing ok i think. im over a month clean so im pretty proud of myself. its so hard losing someone you love so much. i now listen to this song to show im brave and strong, not weak and miserable. i think she would be proud of me. im never gonna forget her (literally ever) but im gonna move on. ive made new friends who know what ive been through. i lost friends cos they didnt believe me. but i stayed strong. i made friends who make me happy. one of my friends holds me when i need it and she will even cry with me half the time. we tell our shit to each other like out life depends on it. find someone like that. find someone you can help who can also help you. edited at 8:30pm on december 9th 2021. <3 i dont want to say that im fully okay because i know im not. people can ask me how i am and my answer is 'fine' or 'doing okay'. i cant believe its nearly been two fucking years without my bestfriend. my literal soulmate. i never could find anyone like her because she made everything feel right. she picked me up and stuck me back together with glue like i was a broken vase and i hate myself for not realising and doing the same for her. she deserved so much better and its so upsetting to think that i didnt even fucking notice how much mental pain she was in. she had such a beautiful soul. sometimes i feel like shes still here. like when im going through shit shes there next to me holding me tight. im 41 days clean and i like to hope that shes extremely proud of me. if shes not. thats okay. i get it. but i hope she is. she would turn 15 this year, just after me. i cant take her on her first night out. or watch her get her first tattoo. or buy a house with her. all the things i wish i could do i cant and i hate her for doing it. but at the same time i really dont. and i could never hate her. if she was in that much pain that she took her own life then how was 13 year old me going to help. i still see her family as if theyre my own. her parents let me keep her favourite things like her teddies and items of clothing and even her fucking skateboard. i barely touch any of it because apart from the gentle touches i gave them she was the last person to touch it all. the only thing i touch on a daily basis is her dog teddy storm. she loved that thing so much and wouldnt show it anyone she didnt trust. i have it every night with me. i even take it with me when i go out sometimes just to feel like shes actually here. i have pictures of her all over my room in little photo frames. my favourite is one of me and her on her 10th birthday. smiling genuine smiles. it has sand in it from the beach we put her ashes in. her favourite beach. theres a lot of favourites in this but my favourite everything is her. no one can make me smile the way she made me smile. the inside jokes between me and her were so amazing. i really hopes she waits for me or whatever. me and her always used to make jokes about haunting the people we dont like when were d3@d. i want to do that with her so she'll have to wait a long time for me. im not sure if i'll come back to this but if i dont. i love you jess, forever and always. and if i do. i love you jess, forever and always. maddie x edited at 5:47pm on wednesday the 13th of april 2022. you're my favourite <3 so its been a while. im 270 days clean. and im going on britains got talent next year for her. not for me. every acomplishment i make will always have her behind it. i wouldnt do anything i do if it wasnt for her. i miss her so fucking much man. she was everything to me n recently ive felt shitty ab so much n i cant go talk to her ab it anymore. n ik its coming up on 3 years but this shit never gets any easier. november 29th, 2022. 8:56pm

all i want is to not cry at night. all i want is to be able to talk about how badly i want to hurt myself. I want to be able to tell my dad what i'm struggling with. i want to tell him how sorry i am for acting how i have. i want to tell him that i'm sorry for hurting myself, yet some part of me wants to tell everyone i know that i love them and i'll miss them. some part of me wants to say goodbye, and to go through with it.

POV: you hold your dying lover in your arms. Time is slipping away as their breathes become staggered, and blood colors their lips. "Hey, hey look at me" You beg as your tears falls on their cheeks. Their eyes meets yours, droopy, fighting for life. "Don't leave me! " You sob. Their voice cracks "... I would never" "But you are!!" You cry out, accepting their fate. ".. I will find you... In another life... " They reach out, cupping your face "I will find you.. " Their hand drops, sealing that promise. A blood curdeling scream leaves your lungs hollow and empty. The weight of your lover is still heavy in your arms. You shake yourself out of sleep. Sweaty and breathless. "What a weird dream.. " You hang over your bed, head in your hands. Shaking off the pure sadness you felt in that dream. So, like every morning, you get ready and head out the door. Accomplishing the first of the many tasks of the day, getting coffee. A gush of wind blows in your face, freezing time for the briefest moment. That's when you saw them. Listening to music, book in hand while opening the door. A wave of recognition shot through your body like the purest yet most powerful instinct. You whisper.. "I found you.. "

i literally cant sleep unless i’m listening to this BSVJSSHS

I love how there’s no adds, thank you for that. You truly understand people who can’t afford premium. Edit 11:36 pm Sunday August 1 — holy crap 2.2k likes wow thank you so much especially since a lot of people are starting to get ads which sucks, sorry to everyone who is getting ads. The struggle is real.

Me reading the comments “I love how there’s no adds” me reading this while a add is playing

the vibes are unreal i'm literally crying omg this is a freakin masterpiece

pov but it’s a real story your listening to you straight crush singing this and playing the piano and you fall even deeper in love with her but you can’t let her know how you feel or else your friendship will fall apart

Is it me or does anyone else put this song on when there going to bed and just fall asleep w it on ???

Oh your the one who helps all of your friends and always mentally help and support them while acting like your living the best life and you don’t have a single care in the world but in reality you need help more than all of them but you don’t want to make it seem like “everything’s all about you” so you cry yourself to sleep almost every night telling yourself this emotion is just a phase when in reality your just genuinely lonely and probably need somebody in your life to help you but you don’t ‘want’ help...you just want happiness? Mood, same here my names Suki nice to meet you

POV: your grandma is in the hospital and no one in your family told you how bad she was doing so you were “living life” only to go see her and she tells you she loves you and that she is gonna miss you so much and when you leave you cry so much to where you can barely open your eyes. After two days, you get told about “the call”. And you think to yourself “Grandma, if you loved me, why did you leave me?”

Id let him hurt me 100times just to feel his love again.

Am I the only one who listens to this song and just thinks about life and whats going on in the world and just zones out completely or like my depression if I'm really struggling just listened to this song it helps so much maybe thats just me lol

There's not a single day I wouldn't miss him.

Hi idk who’s reading this but this song a warm bath and the right person in mind just trust me

It’s sad when the person you love the most doesn’t want you anymore….