I... really thought you cared - a playlist

they’re not a bad person, they’re just a bad friend.

Reminder: it's okay to disappear until you feel like yourself again. If people don't understand, you better let them go

They're a good person but they just "never know what to say" when i vent.

Why do I care so much about them even though all they do is hurt me?

The first song and where it said “What about me..” it’s basically me screaming inside because I’m getting left out way more at school now..

Pov: its 4 in the morning and your tired but you have a overdue assignment

I was always there for everyone but when i needed them they were gone. People are so selfish.

me when i make all my pain into humour and everybody laughs or gets quiet when i make jokes and i just feel awkward: aha!! amazing

When you have a constant fear that everyone just pretends to care about you just so they can break you down when you finally shut that voice out telling you no one cares about you and takes even the slightest thing people do to make you believe in that voice, and you never tell people about it because you're afraid they might say its true and abandon you so you sit in silence never able to properly be happy because that voice keeps ruining it, you try to be perfect so maybe that voice will stop because who would hate a perfect person right? so you change yourself for people until you don't even know who you are, so you give up again and finally accept that voice will never leave and people will leave, you start to prepare yourself for it and hate when you get close to people because you're attached and when they leave it'll hurt, you start another cycle of getting attached, trying to match everything they do, losing yourself all so that they won't leave because you're scared of that pain sorry about the vent and if it was confusing to read i have a problem with sticking to the same topic and usually end up explaining really messily

I was so infatuated with him for what seemed like such a long time that I realized I needed to stop. I needed to stop seeking his validation. Stop thinking anything was gonna happen with him. Stop thinking he cared as much as I thought cause he really didn’t. Not as much as I cared for him. Now I’ve just decided I’m not gonna chase people anymore and I’m just wait until I find someone who appreciates me. Someone I don’t have to chase to get them to like me. Someone who likes me naturally without me really trying hard to get them to. I think that will be much healthier

\\Vent// I'm so fucking tired dude. Everything was fine untill she joined the group and started to emotionally manipulate me, she took them away, yeah we still talk and laugh but I know that deep inside they prefer her over me. But that's fine, I guess I really an replaceable.

the fact that he could be listening to this song because of what i did fucks me up so much.

im truly sorry for not responding to any of the comments. i get overwhelmed really easily but i do try to read them all. remember, it’s not your fault for feeling the way you’re feeling. if they don’t listen and make efforts to make you feel better, they aren’t worth your time. take care of yourself first. you’re more important than a relationship. you’re so brave and i hope you’ll find the right people. your efforts will mean something one day. im so proud of you. please keep going <3 edit: i wanna cry, the replies are so sweet. thank you all so much.

"You always say you want to disappear, but actually you just want to be found"

Nah cause I had my math exam today and I felt like I did terrible (I actually got 18/20 and stressed for no reason lol) and I surprisingly started crying and my mom walked in and instead of asking me if I was okay or something, she said "what happend? I hope u won't fail." And walked out without saying anything. I had breakdowns throughout the day and she didn't care at all. I really thought I was more important to her than my grades but I was wrong.

he was my friend. i thought he cared. but then everybody else came along. and all of a sudden. im in the background. but yk what? ive spent weeks working on myself. eating healthy. studying. exercising. being with my family. ill show them who's really in the background.

Just left a not exactly toxic friend group but they didn't really bring me joy Kinda missing those memories but-

Today my psychologist told my mom everything i told her. She promised. And um i was just crying 'cause my life is ending here like im no longer a human. So this is a good timing about playlist thank you so much. And you know as the name of the playlist i really thought she cared but it wass all just a lie ig. Im planning to end our sessions saturday.

// vent She was my best friend, I told her everything, we spoke all the time, i trusted her, i trusted her so much I came out to her as ace. She started to talk to this boy, I didn’t think too much of it at first because surely she wouldn’t abandon our friendship because of him, and I didn’t want to be possessive. She started dating this boy a few months ago and I found out that he was extremely homophobic and misogynistic. I was worried of telling my best friend this because I already felt her drifting. But she ended up finding out anyways. She haven’t spoken to me during our entire winter break. Yet her sc and insta story show that she’s been seeing her bf everyday, she just hasn’t bother to talk.