pov: it's getting worse again and it's all your fault [a playlist]

hii sweeties i haven't posted for like 8 months and i'm really sorry, i have been through hard times lately because of school and also because of personal reasons. i will try to be more active and i apologize again:(( anyway, here you are the timestamps: 0:00 rain - jack stauber 0:35 memoir #2 - may roosvelt 2:46 poison tree - grouper 6:20 just take my wallet - jack stauber 7:52 vas - jagger finn 9:33 you not the same - tilekid 12:16 cigarettes out the window - TV girl 15:55 look who's inside again - bo burnham 17:29 young - vacations 21:05 haunt me (x3) - teen suicide 24:18 in my head - bedroom 31:37 inside out - duster 34:17 a burning hill - mitski 36:14 i can't handle change - roar

Pov: Everyone around you is getting confident, being happy and moving on and you’re still where you were a year ago…

When you think everything is getting better. But then you realize, it hasn't got better...

That heart wrenching moment when you realize your right back where you were before you thought it was getting better

Pov:you start to feel like you're losing your mind because of all the chronic mood swings and you can't recognize that these feelings are real or not

Pov : you bottled up your feelings and now you don't know how to feel anymore

Pov: you think you’re finally starting to heal and move on when in reality, you’re just getting used to that feeling so it’s doesn’t bother you the way it did before 🙂

it hurts i dont even know what hurts, it just hurts.

you’re lost in your 20s whereas everyone in your life is moving forward. All you want is answers and a reason to wake up

Sometimes you're even ashamed to cry because it's all your fault

I just wish I could talk to someone about my problems without feeling judged. I hate this world.

Its crazy how everything could be going good for the first time and your smiling again and all it takes is one person to get u back to square one.

Pov: You hear everyone over in the next room laughing, and being happy. But as soon as you walk in to join in on the fun, nobody is laughing anymore...

POV: You lived a normal life before everything started going downhill. You lost your friends. You realize your alone. You don't know who to trust anymore. Your grades are getting worse by the second. Your life is being ripped apart, you see everyone continuing on without you. Your friends don't talk to you anymore, you don't have good luck. Medical problems are making everything worse, You've been betrayed, and by life itself.

Pov: You feel like you don't have any talents, hobbies or skills and you're just taking up space that could have been occupied by someone more worthy..

"I'm not a good person as I thought, I'm bad."

pov: you act happy and people genuinely think you're happy but instead you're the worst you've ever been.

When you think you're getting better but realise you have just found comfort in the darkness instead.

Pov: When you thought this year was going to be your best year but it becomes your worst.

“All you wanted was to make others happy but in the end you made them sad”