you're tired of everything ~ slowed playlist
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Published 2021-09-28
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to the person reading this, Itâs been hard for you, I know, and it makes me sad that you donât see yourself in the way I see you. Sometimes they are things in life that cause us to lose ourselves, and the way you have is so unimaginably painful. I miss your smile, the way your eyes light up the whole room just by the sound of your laughter. I miss the way you accepted the way you look in the mirror without cursing yourself out about how ugly you look. I miss the way you didnât think of yourself as a failure because everyone makes mistakes, we all have flaws and we all arenât perfect. Itâs painful to see that no one around you seems to see the pain through your eyes, but, stranger, I do, I see how heavy your heart is and how comforting the sadness for you might be, how afraid your heart is of happiness because it disappears in the end, right? You donât know how much impact you have in this world and itâs sad to see that your demons fight against you and want to take over you. Because you do make change, itâs something so simple and little that brightens up someoneâs whole world, it can be a small smile from your lips, the way you look at things youâre passionate about, the way you make yourself eat even though itâs been hard for you lately, the way you zoom out and go in your own world, you brighten up my world by reading this, it means a lot to me that youâre here, existing, but I donât want you to just exist, you deserve to feel alive. You deserve to get up in the morning and feel good about yourself. You deserve to feel something- to feel every damn second alive in this lifetime. Itâs heartbreaking that you think youâre not capable of being loved, because you are, I love you through all my words and I hope you let it happen in your heart. Love is scary, I know, maybe your heart has been broken once and since then you wanted to be rather numb than feel ever again, it hurts me how you punish yourself, does it not deserve love? Because YOU DO deserve love, please forgive yourself, itâs not your fault that the demons want to take over your beautiful heart. Youâre not a bad person for distancing yourself from others, but you deserve someone to talk to, you deserve someone to listen to. I am listening, you can tell me whatâs wrong. Itâs everything, isnât it? Thereâs something pulling your heartstrings on the ground and no one seems to understand how misunderstood you feel. It's heartbreaking to know that I am behind the screen and canât give you a hug, thatâs why I will give you a big warm virtual hug and send you lots of love :). You matter. You are worthy. You are loved. You deserve good things. You deserve someone to listen to. You deserve to eat and drink. You deserve to feel good and alive. You deserve to smile. You deserve a hug. You deserve to be all the things you want to be, because you deserve to have and feel good things happening to you and have a fulfilled life. I know I might not know you personally but I care about you so much. I write this because I want you to stay here with me. I want you to hold on a little longer because you matter so much to me, because I will not let you give up on yourself. I want you to see that you should not give up on yourself because you DESERVE GOOD THINGS. I want you to look back on the time when you were a kid, you didnât give up when you tried to swim for the first time, you didnât give up when you tired to walk for the first time and fell, you never gave up on yourself, you always kept on pushing forwards, so why canât you now? I know itâs tiring, you're mentally tired, but don't your younger self deserve good things? look back at your eyes that used to be full of hope, look back on those dreams. Donât let yourself fall, you deserve better. We will both fight, I will fight for you. I wonât let those demons get to you. You can hold on to me, I wonât let you down :). Whenever you feel lonely, then look at the sky, I always look at it and think about you. Yes, you, because it makes me happy that thereâs someone looking right back, maybe we canât see each other but I can feel your presence here with me and thatâs enough for me, because I am glad your heart is beating and youâre still fighting. Youâre so much stronger than you think, you didnât leave your spot on this earth even if you wanted to, you belong here, even though it doesnât feel like it, when you donât feel like belonging then build your own home here, put all your love in it and dreams. Think of you as a star when you feel alone, you shine because your heart is good, no matter what mistake you made, no matter about the past you had, youâre one of the stars that shine bright in the universe because youâre heart is beautiful, thatâs why the demons in your mind wants to have it. As one of the stars you see other stars, maybe they have felt the same way as you do at some point in their life, but they lighten up the universe with each otherâs presence. Youâre a star for me, maybe you donât see it yourself but I can see it, youâre beautiful from inside and out, your body is beautiful the way it is. You make me happy by reading this, you make me feel something by your presence and when you can make me feel that way then you also make other people feel that way about you too. I hope you stay for yourself and donât let your story get written by others but by yourself, itâs your story not theirs. As you can see, I say a lot of âI hopeâ because I have hope for you even if you donât have it for yourself, I see hope in you even though you might want to give up. Thatâs why I hope you wonât see the world in darkness and will see it colorful again. I hope I will give you a glimpse of hope and make the world you see a bit colorful for today. My favorite color is yellow, and I hope the next time you see the color yellow you will think about my words. If someone left you then donât blame yourself, donât think you werenât enough, donât lower yourself for someone who couldnât see the awesomeness in you. If you lost someone I am so sorry for your loss, they want you happy. I hope you donât feel guilty or regret because you were there, you spent enough time with them, they want you to be happy. They are in a good and safe place now. If someone broke your heart then I am so sorry that they couldnât see the way you look so beautiful because of the heart you have. Anyone who gets to be with you, doesnât know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :). If you arenât accepted at home or in general then I am so sorry that you have to deal with someone/ something you shouldnât be ashamed of. I accept you and support you. I accept you as a human being no matter what race, religion, nationality, skin color, or sexuality you have. Youâre safe here with me :). Youâre not useless, youâre not a burden to anyone. Youâre not a problem, youâre human and your feelings are valid. Youâre not being dramatic. Please donât starve yourself, you deserve food and to drink, I know itâs hard. It hurts to see that youâre in so much pain :( you deserve so much man, donât let your emotions control you. Donât let them get the best of you. I am sorry no one is noticing, I wish /hope I could take your pain away for today or even for a moment while youâre reading this. If no one told you, I am so proud of you, youâre reading this and itâs enough for me to be proud of you because youâre here and thatâs all that matters to me. If itâs night for you, go to sleep, I know itâs hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, donât let them fight you. If itâs day for you, donât start it with such sad music. I know itâs impossible to have a good day with such a mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water everyday in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits. If itâs evening for you, youâre probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know itâs okay to feel the way you feel. You donât need to be scared, of course youâre overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldnât? But itâs important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed. And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that youâre so strong for breathing despite the pain, I know you will make it :) I believe in you. All I want for you is to stay here, I really mean all my words, even if there are a lot of unsaid things I want to tell you and my text is getting longer and longer, I want you here. I hope one day your smile will become a genuine one where you donât need to fake it anymore, because I canât say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. Youâre worth more than every fucking cent in this world. You can let go for today, I got you, you can cry your heart out as much as you want, but donât let it tear you down and let your emotions control you by giving up. Crying is not a weakness. If you still feel alone I dedicate a song as your friend. âDusk till Dawn- Zayn feat. Sia (I prefer the slow version)â I hope you can think of me and will remind yourself of my words, I will for sure think of you. In case no one told you and youâre unsure yourself, youâre a good person and I am so happy youâre here. I hope this is enough to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. Enough with beating yourself up for today, okay? Life for those who couldnât, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like thereâs no other, hug like it's your last one. If you read all of it, until tomorrow my friend :) I love you so so so much. <3
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Iâm not depressed or anything, I just donât feel like myself anymore, Iâm staring at the walls more, Iâm sleeping more, Iâm not smiling that much . I just feel numb some days.
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I'm tired of letting my parents get to me. I don't want them to have an effect on me yet, every time something happens I will always cry. I just feel like the problematic child in the family. Like everything I do is set up for failure. I just feel sad. I try not to care about what others think of me, yet the thoughts just creep into my head sometimes. I'm now here crying and venting to people I can't even see. I'm not okay
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"I wanted to write down exactly what I felt but somehow the paper stayed empty and I could not have described it any better.â
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when people asked me why im bleeding i say its bc im fighting. Still, day by day. If u r, u try ur best. And if u not - u tried ur best anyway. btw, thx u, seraphic, u r always just in time. You dont know how matter u r, and how many lives u saved. w/ love from some girl from russia <3
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we can't die cause people around us would get hurt why are we living for others i cant die so im living but is it really a living? tired of everything looking for understanding but actually i dont want anyone to understand me cause that would mean they suffer tired of everything sleeping all day cause when I sleep it's almost like im dead sleeping is escape from reality but i always have to wake up why do i keep waking up? tired of everything i dont wanna wake up tired of everything people say don't give up I've already given up i only live cause i cant die
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I am so tired. Tired of everything. Tired that I'm tired. Tired of being stuck. Tired of only being able to wish for freedom. Tired that I have to put up with emotions. I'm tired of myself. I'm tired of my limits. Tired that I'm limited. Tired of what I was given, and tired of waiting to be able to open a new door. I want to leave this place. Move on to whatever is after this life, the darkness, or the next life, heaven, hell, if they even exist. I'm tired of life. But somehow I'm still here. Maybe it's for my friends, maybe it's because I've still got things left to do. Maybe I just haven't found the right way to go yet. I'm tired. I'm tired of it all. Thank you for this.
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For everyone reading this...you deserve a good day. So enjoy yourself ;) And don't forget, the past is the past.
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To be honest Iâm really lost and Iâm pretty jealous of my past self and Iâve learnt to love all the small memories with my friends that I make along the way. Iâve been just so caught up everyday my feelings are a loss and my friendâs smiles and the people I make laugh is what keeps me going itâs not that Iâm sad itâs just a blur and I donât know how to feel and I feel like Iâm living life just the way it is and not always smiling by myself and Iâm getting fed up at nothing absolutely nothing because there are just too many problems I push them aside and talking to people about their problems is my only remedy watching every go by it feels like Iâm drowning and I can see everyone above me laughing smiling living life how it was meant to be and Iâm fine with being like that but Iâm always the one lost doing nothing not paying attention in class not doing work and listing to music 24/7 and I donât expect much from people around me but I just wanna live life and smile one day with a real friend group. J.K.W
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honestly im not even sad, i dont know why im crying
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I know it's can be hard sometimes but hold on, fight and stay alive. Don't lie to your firend.s, just tell them the truth, they are there to help you if they're true friends. Life can be hard an can hurt but it worth it so stay alive, one day you'll fine that one thing which will save you. Trust in you, you are incredible whoever you are <3 w/ love from a french girl
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Life is way too overwhelming for me I have so much going on but I donât know how to explain what I feel and Iâm also scared to say what I feel so nobody believes me I am ugly and hopeless and I have no one to tell this to and this is what keeps me going and pretending to be fine to not let others down thanks for the playlist itâs amazing
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seriously... these playlists are very perfect
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knowing i was a mistake, literally. just makes things worse. if i never happened, everyoneâs life would be so much better. crazy... iâm just in pain, empty, and numb.... finally ate three meals today thoguh..
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you'll never know how it feels till it happens to you..
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great playlist as always
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This is great just started listening already amazing đđ
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When people ask me how I doing, I always say I doing good. If I'm with my good friends, I'll say meh. But I can never say (I am going to use my bsf's name) "y'know Tommy? I'm not doing too good today," because I don't want to have to explain to my friends the things I go through bc Ik they wouldn't really understand. I could never say it in front of my parents bc they would NEVER IN A MILLION YEARS understand. I also told my friends I would tell them a secret I've been keeping from them, but I don't know how to tell them. I just really wish I could explain everything to them but I really don't know how. I can't control my emotions and don't want to break down in front of them. I'm the only female in the friend group and the one is always staying strong for them all and they know I'll always be strong for them, and I don't want that to go away. What should I do? I don't know if I should explain my really messed up life and why I act the way I do, or if I should tell them I cuse. That is what I planned on doing, but I'm not sure anymore. Youtube helps me more than my family, so please help me now.
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The title of this playlist is so accurate for me. I'm so tired of being terrified of the world because I'm a girl. Why should I have to worry about how i act or how i dress why do i have to live in constant fear of being violated and being blamed for it. I got catcalled for the first time when I was 13. I was wearing this jumpsuit that i really liked but i never wanted to wear it again after that. Why're little girls taught that if a boy bullies her he likes her. They're setting her up for unnecessary pain and suffering that she never deserved but she thinks it's fine because that's what she was taught. Im so sick of being terrified because I exist.