I'm just a kid...: a {vent} playlist

before the pandemic, I was that little girl who always getting honors and whose grades are always high. But after the pandemic I changed into that girl who has low grades and no honors at school, I've been trying to change but I just can't I also prayed to God and everything but nothing has ever changed, I'm also trying to focus on my studies but I just can't. Today my mom got mad at me again, I'm tired of my parents getting mad at me and I just want them to say ''you can do this'' and ''you're not alone we're gonna get through this together'' ''I don't mind as long as you get low grades, what matters is that you tried'' ''I love you, you tried so it's okay'' I want to hear that from them.. I've been trying to change really, but I cant. These past days I try to be happy and just not think abt school and stuff but it just made things worse. My mom got mad at me today and I'm happy I have my little brother actually, I just really want them to say those words to me to make me happy. I never got to experience the Family Day that my school held since my parents were busy on a Sunday so I didn't get to bond with them at that time. Everyone calls me pretty but I don't mind that actually, one of my friends also said that I'm lucky to not have any problems but they were wrong. I honestly hate life

Remember to take care of yourself <3 ~< t i m e s t a m p s >~ - 0:00 alien blues -2:35 Notion -5:51 Treehouse -8:29 Softcore -11:56 She knows -15:34 Pumped Up Kicks -19:34 Wires -22:50 I found -27:20 Tired -30:41 Daddy issues Remember to drink water and get plenty of rest <333 Also if you need to vent feel free to in the replies

omg yes, this is just what I needed, I listen to your playlist while doing the homework or when I’m feeling down and they make me feel better :)

An outburst of a little Brazilian girl Before the pandemic, everything was fine. That's when the problems started. Still in the pandemic at age 9 (I'm writing this 1 year later) My parents started fighting, and this was constantly I could say almost every day. My father is very bipolar, and my mother tries to keep my father calm, but she never succeeds. They always end up frowning, and in most fights, I'm close enough to hear all or most of the phrases they say to each other. That was before school. When we went back to studying in person, I made new friends, and everything was going well, but the fights continued constantly, and it always filled my head. At school everything was fine but only for now. That's when I started being ignored by my friends. I know it's a problem that many have but it wasn't just that. A year later, I went to fifth grade (where I still am). Everything was the same, I was ignored, I was always the second option, and I always listened to other people's problems. But there was never anyone to listen to mine, every day there was something happening. It didn't matter if it was at home or at school. But I always hid my problems with a smile. I'm still in the 5th grade, with my parents fighting daily, with problems at school, and personal problems. But I will always hide them with a smile, since it's just a "Phase" :) Sorry if have wrong phrases. i'm from brazil so i'ts difficult for me.(and i'm a little girl :/ )

Alien blues 0:00 Notion 8D 2:38 Treehouse 5:52 Softcore 8:29 Bad thing’s 11:55 Pumped up kicks 15:37 Wires 19:34 I found 22:54 Daddy issues 27:22

Edit: just realised should have put a vent warning. Just the title itself rings true for me. Moments of temporary happiness happen where I can forget the past and live in the now, those in the live would know. But even then I always seek validation ,even from people I don't know much about like you Aria because for years when someone says something positive about a group I assume they mean everybody but me. Some of you may know from the last live that I struggle but I have my coping mechanisms like the lovely conversation I have with you guys in the lives. I guess what I'm trying to say is I think I want to form stronger friendships with some of you guys cause when I arrive in a live and say hey you greet me with such warm welcomes and to show my gratitude for some of you I'm happy to do any art or (when my guitar gets here) maybe I'll stream in the winter playing by the river. Thank you so much to you guys XX (and hawks don't stab yourself with a rusty file. Use a clean one at least 😅)

I swear your playlists are literally the best. And ur username is a Tokyo ghoul reference. I swear this is the best combination of music I’ve listened to

Hi hope everyone who sees this has an amazing day/night.

Thx 4 helping me out cuz today my maths teacher gave me sum homeworks

VENT WARNING! Im tired of everything. My own father is pressuring me to be better at home. I'm trying my best, and its like nobody understands. After the recent break up between my mom and dad i haven't felt the same. It hurts everytime i think about how things used to be. The things that happen now are way different. I know its silly. I know most people will call me stupid for venting. But its what i need to do. Thank you for listening.

This is honestly my favorite playlist, not because it is a vent one but because I can easily vibe

I love your playlist

the fact that more likely kids under 18 may be listening to this is just sad its devistating to know that 18 under or over is more likely to have deppresion, anxiety, family trauma, school trauma, ED, panic attacks, zone outs, sadness, cry most days, stays in there room most days, and insecurities like that is just sad and devastating just know that you are loved by people and if you think people hate you then just know that i think YOU matter if you think your hand is paper then dont cut it just draw on it go back to the old days when you would draw on your hand some stuff dont forget to drink some water and eat some food remember that you matter to atleast 20 people you are beautiful/handsome just the way you are if this is because of a passing then im very sorry for your loss but do you think they wouldve wanted this for you? to sit here all day crying and not eating nor drinking water? no. they would never want this for you they wouldve wanted you to continue life to stay healthy, You may be 18 over or under but your still a kid we still need you in this world, people online want you alive, i want you alive, think about the future, think about your kids in the future who knows maybe there is light at the end of the road, to the person thats reading this i hope good karma comes to you, i hope luck comes to you, and as much as how stupid this may sound, there is hotlines that will help you through your problem, did you know 100,000 deaths due to suicide happen per year? that is 100,000 family crying and screaming per year, think about this your family may be abusive or neglected you but maybe they dont know how to show their love, maybe that is their love, to does who plan on commiting dont do it you still have your whole life ahead of you, who knows what can happen in the future, yet there is a way to see what may be in the future, to let it continue in order to see the future you have to let time pass by so who know? maybe youll have children? maybe youll have grand children? maybe cars will fly? but the only way to know what may be in the future is to let it flow, dont stop its flow just let it continue to the person thats reading this thank you for reading and just know you matter - a kid :)

I feel I want to feel better and free from my mess that I use to love ....... (Vent)

I LOVE THIS PLAYLIST

...what happened- I was in 5th grade.. i was smiling.. wearing unicorn shirts.. not caring.. ...I'm in 8th and 3 of my friends died- and then my other friends joke bot there death. I'm a kid. I'm a fucking kid. IM A FUCKING KID.

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its sad that i clicked on this. i really am just a kid.