Annihilation of The Trance: The first true Fana

Perfect timing. Been having moments of who am I and identity realizations. The cycling had felt unstable but this matches perfectly. The distraction from the zombie reality

Part of this discussion reminded me of two similar lessons: Patanjali’s Yoga Sutras’ whole idea of these Siddhis actually being impediments that are testing you to see if what you really wanted were the powers or Intimacy with Reality. Or, as Yogananda said it: “Be like the baby that throws every toy away and cries because it simply wants to hold Mama.”

I completely disagree with this idea that your Thirteen year old awakening wasn't very important to the whole meaning of your life. It reminds me of C.S. Lewis's profound experience as a child. In his book Surprised By Joy. That was his heroes journey of trying to find that sweet spot of comfort, peace, home, but also realizing that there is always more to everything that we are learning about and that progress. Being something more than you thought possible for yourself. The freedom of being limitless in the positive characteristics of divine, universal growth through initiation and transformation. The journey can be lonely but not always. Sometimes loneliness is our teacher and friend.

Thanks for being there.

Annihilation of the Trance is my next band name 🤘

Timestamps: this is not edited for a general audience & in no way meant to be an index. I share my notes because may lead to further discussion. 7:30 ego confronts the great lie, cuts humanity off from its destiny, Tablet of Destinies, Elohim? = your reality tunnel 10:45 the annihilation of the desire to be in the dream — annihilation of the “doing” 12:15 your inner world is just as illusionary as the outer world is — just as full of sleep 13:30 magnetic trance as hypnosis 14:00 you cannot unexperience waking up to your own sleep of your inner world, own ghosts & entities, to the thousand eyes that run through you, that are all asleep, and all running their little habits, you cannot unsee that [*Hoffman* seeing 3D cube multiple ways] 19:45 opposite of neuroplasticity - consciousness sedimentation 21:00 think something you don’t want to know, what do you have to do to not let yourself know it once you’ve known it? And what does it do to you to do it to that? 22:30 process of ‘youth’ing, becoming more flexible 24:00 are you awake? [are you recording?] 25:45 lucid dreaming in THIS world -awake IN the dream, awake FROM the dream 26:00 Enneagram interstitched for some distracting reason 27:00 convinced of their own illumination because they’re having really cool experiences n in world — visions, ecstatic events, bliss rush 28:00 Mark Twain - the mysterious stranger 29:30 inflating spiritual ego [Phenomenon steering our path, intelligent design, is this a necessary step of growth, ever-changing personalization as means of communication{kabbala spirit link}] 32:45 mystical experiences as entrapment 33:00 every experience has something potentially to teach us [in the right projection] 35:00 [childhood Experiencer] 37:15 once in awakened state, what can one do? Chop wood, carry water 38:00 waking up is Nirvana, bodhisattva vow -waking up is letting go, the Kundalini is the highest experience in this plane, but it’s just ego, this is still sleeping, still a part of the dream 42:30 if we can hold these experiences lightly, they can serve as encouragement, as goal posts, as waymarkers; something is happening — most importantly, KEEP GOING 1:00:00 letting go of the moment of importance 1:10:00 old English word - anxiety of knowing you’re about to wake up and won’t be able to go back to sleep 1:11:00 reflexive nature of Fana 1:12:45 there’s no individuality in this, no ego, no experiential reality — it’s the annihilation of actions & essence, of connection with the external world & the internal world as something you believe as real 1:14:00 intention, attention, presence 1:15:15 easy to be passionate about COPY WHOLE QUOTE wanting to want 1:18:30 ideas not fitting exactly with the map [insights are gifts that are close but not the REAL answer, the quest is to harmonize that idea to truth, to source] 1:20:00 no model can ever be complete

Thank you. for your help love and faithfulness to God our sustainer, thank you my brothers and sisters. I wish you the best of health, strength, light and absolute love. With love and respect from God and your faithful bearer of light. Darius Probergas.

I'm only up to min. 23 but found the talk about ''spiritual ego'' interesting. We can get trapped in spiritual ego for a long time. It is the most entrancing and delusive ego state of them all. We can be lost there for years and may drown in it. it is the great trap and we must be constantly vigilant for it is so sweet and enticing and is the greatest ego trip of them all.

Asking for spare change from the couch cushions? I’m so embarrassed for you.

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