How I Recovered From 10 Years Of Depersonalization With No Medication

hats off to you for surviving for 10 years and congratulations for your recovery. All of us fellow sufferers are true embodiment of how strong the will to live can be.

I've had this since I was 4, I'm 37 now! I had extreme childhood trauma, I was sh*t in the face with an Ak-47, drive by. I was also s*xually abu*ed by my 16 year old male cousin when I was 4-5 years old, I was ab*sed physically by parents, I've had pure o ocd, and ptsd, since I was 5, then later at 19, was diagnosed with sle lupus and fibromyalgia! I saw videos on here that said ocd causes this Disassociate disorder. 😢 I'm glad yours stopped. ❤ I'll keep praying for mine, and others who still suffer. 🙏🏾 ❤

I’ve sent this to my family to try to explain what’s going on for me. It literally hits all the nails on the head!

10 years.. you are a soldier

You have no idea how helpful this video was to me. I'm a 26 year old girl living in Sweden and I've struggled with derealisation, anxiety and depression for about 7 years and never really knew what it was I was going trough.The only thing I knew was that what I was feeling stopped me from finding a job, going to school some days and even not being able to leave my house as I was so scared I would "loose my mind" in public all off a sudden. Derealisation is not yet commonly known here in Sweden so I've been really finding it sooo tough to express my feelings to practically anyone even tough my mental state has gotten in the way of so many different opportunities in my life. To know that I am not alone, and that there is someone out there that can relate to me makes me tear up. I'm so incredibly grateful you made this video, I can't even describe it with words. Thank you.

Holly shit dude I'm 28 and after getting high off weed and having a panic attack, I finally realized what was going on. This has been increadibly help ful.

It’s been 10 years for me too, and I’ve been looking for someone who has had this incredibly disorienting experience. It’s cathartic to hear someone describe it from the perspective of someone who’s been through it. Thank you. 🙏

I experienced this for at least 6 months. I was depressed and had no way of expressing it. I used to call it the "am I really here feeling". It is horribly frightening and upsetting. So glad it finally went away and I cant recall how that happened. But I do fear the return...thanks for sharing

I also get these waves of bad feelings like as if something awful is about to happen come out of no where, it’s the worst

I’ve been in constant dissociation for 10 years too. This is the first thing I’ve ever seen that was actually helpful, and extremely so. Honestly thankyou so much wtf

I’m only 18, I’ve been going through this for years without knowing. I thought this was just how I was as a person, thank you for opening up my mind and heart to realize that these thoughts and feelings aren’t who I really am.

I am in tears. I'm going thru this for months after a traumatic event and was having lapses in memory and thought I was losing my mind! The going to the room and forgetting what just happened thing/bursts of what feels like my brain fizzing out and brain fog/forgetfulness. I didn't know it was part of dpdr. Thank you❤

You’re a Godsend for making this video. I feel that God chooses certain struggles for certain people so that they can help others. You are helping more people than you know. I had my first panic attack six months ago that sparked dpdr for me up until about a month ago. It’s dramatically decreased for me but the trauma from that feeling for six months alone is a weird reminder and the thought of it coming back is scary. Your video brings me comfort. Thank you. And I am so happy to hear that you’re healed, happy and doing better.

It's interesting because DR has elements that are really similar to symptoms of spiritual awakening (if you know what this spiritually means). So, feeling that you are in a dream and that "your" body is not YOUR body but actually a body through which you perceive reality and that reality is a dream, so pure Imagination and is not actually real, but just a perception, is actually part of an experience you would have it if you lived through a spiritual awakening, which can be truly destabilizing and difficult to cope with. Still, I believe there are thin lines to draw, since detachment can be a survival strategy that we use to avoid painful emotions and can result into specific behaviors that support this strategy (e.g. Staying home, not socializing, playing videogames).

I’ve been dealing with this for the last year and a half primarily while driving on the freeway. I understand that I need to relax, accept it, acknowledge it and just be present to feel what I’m going through.

Thanks for the video Rumzi!

Great job, thank you for having the courage to share your experience and what you learned from it!

10 yr sufferer as well. Hearing you mention all the symptoms makes me realize the kind of hell it has been.

This was so helpful. Thank you so much.

This is very very valuable information. You are contributing so much to the world with this video. Thank you