Alone on New Year's...(Post-punk, Bedroom pop Playlist)

I love when the sky gets that ominous gray that smokes over the town on snowy days. It really makes it feel like the rest of the world exists in a whole other realm, like your living in some sort of dream.

46 years old and never listened to music like this. Pretty beautiful if I'm being honest.

College feels like it's never gonna end. Failed relationship after another. Almost all of my friends, including ones I considered very dear, haven't so much as sent me a single text in multiple months, close to a year in some cases. It's pretty clear to me that I'm just the forgotten friend, the one nobody is ever too worried to have around and only really think about when they randomly stumble across in public. Every day feels like a slog, just a repeating pattern that never ends. Idunno how many more "it is what it is" I got left in me, but I'm still going. Not happy, but still alive. Here's to another year, lads.

I wish I found this last night when I was alone on new years I wish everyone a good new years

The pic is perfect. It's like that unspoken time you forgot at that one friend's uncle's Christmas party. You don't even remember why you were there, but it's just an image that pops up in your lonely head at 3am on a similar night.

post-punk, dream pop, goth, indie rock...all i really know is that when i listen to music like this for better or worse i feel like something important is changing

honestly going outside at night and looking at the scene in front of me while music with this vibe plays gives me life

the photo. what a vibe. it looks so relaxing like I wanna stroll around and drink some hot coffee

100 reasons to stay alive: 1. to make your parents proud 2. to conquer your fears 3. to see your family again 4. to see your favourite artist live 5. to listen to music again 6. to experience a new culture 7. to make new friends 8. to inspire 9. to have your own children 10. to adopt your own pet 11. to make yourself proud 12. to meet your idols 13. to laugh until you cry 14. to feel tears of happiness 15. to eat your favorite food 16. to see your siblings grow 17. to pass school 18. to get tattoo 19. to smile until your cheeks hurt 20. to meet your internet friends 21. to find someone who loves you like you deserve 22. to eat ice cream on a hot day 23. to drink hot chocolate on a cold day 24. to see untouched snow in the morning 25. to see a sunset that sets the sky on fire 26. to see stars light up the sky 27. to read a book that changes your life 28. to see the flowers in the spring 29. to see the leaves change from green to brown 30. to travel abroad 31. to learn a new language 32. to learn to draw 33. to tell others your story in the hopes of helping them 34. Puppy kisses. 35. Baby kisses (the open mouthed kind when they smack their lips on your cheek). 36. Swear words and the release you feel when you say them. 37. Trampolines. 38. Ice cream. 39. Stargazing. 40. Cloud watching. 41. Taking a shower and then sleeping in clean sheets. 42. Receiving thoughtful gifts. 43. “I saw this and thought of you." 44. The feeling you get when someone you love says, “I love you." 45. The relief you feel after crying. 46. Sunshine. 47. The feeling you get when someone is listening to you/giving you their full attention. 48. Your future wedding. 49. Your favorite candy bar. 50. New clothes. 51. Witty puns. 52. Really good bread. 53. Holding your child in your arms for the first time. 54. Completing a milestone (aka going to college, graduating college, getting married, getting your dream job.) 55. The kind of dreams where you wake up and can’t stop smiling. 56. The smell before and after it rains 57. The sound of rain against a rooftop. 58. The feeling you get when you’re dancing. 59. The person (or people) that mean the most to you. Stay alive for them. 60. Trying out new recipes. 61. The feeling you get when your favorite song comes on the radio. 62. The rush you get when you step onto a stage. 63. You have to share your voice and talents and knowledge with the world because they are so valuable. 64.Breakfast in bed. 65. Getting a middle seat in the movie theater. 66. Breakfast for dinner (because it’s so much better at night than in the morning). 67. Pray (if you are religious) 68. Forgiveness. 69. Water balloon fights. 70. New books by your favorite authors. 71. Fireflies. 72. Birthdays. 73. Realizing that someone loves you. 74. Spending the day with someone you 75. Opportunity to create meaningful and lasting relationships. 76. Potential to learn, grow, and evolve as a person. 77. Joy and happiness in the little things. 78. The power to inspire others. 79. The ability to create art, music, and other forms of self-expression. 80. To explore different cultures, traditions, and ways of life. 81. To make a positive impact on the environment and help protect the planet. 82. Experience the joys of parenthood and raise a family. 83. Learn new things and develop new skills. 84. Create a legacy that will outlive you. 85. Being wrapped up in a warm bed. 86. Cuddles 87. Holding hands. 88. The kind of hugs when you can feel a weight being lifted off your shoulders. The kind of hug where your breath syncs with the other person’s, and you feel like the only two people in the world. 89. Singing off key with your best friends. 90. Road trips. 91. Spontaneous adventures. 92. The feeling of sand beneath your toes. 93. The feeling when the first ocean wave rolls up and envelops your toes and ankles and knees. 94. Thunderstorms. 95. Your first (or hundredth) trip to Disneyland. 96. The taste of your favorite food. 97. The child-like feeling you get on Christmas morning. 98. The day when everything finally goes your way. 99. Compliments and praise. 100. to look on this moment in 10 years time and realize you did it. Ps : Never forget you are a beautiful person Life is so beautiful so live, live like no one else exist, live for yourself, don't care of bad people, you are strong, i love you 🫶

Tracklist: 1. Orchid Mantis- Within and Apart 0:00-3:30 2. unholy pleasure- When the Sun Dies 3:31-7:42 3. Soft Pastels- They Run 7:43-9:30 4. The True Faith- Minimal Change 9:31-13:34 5. Kafari- Flowerworks 13:35-16:25 6. Mimete- The Notion 16:26-20:37 7. Soft Pastels- Star Flicker 20:38-24:29 8. Orchid Mantis- Never Know Why 24:30-28:06 9. The True Faith- Feet Held to the Fire 28:07-32:04 10. Nights Templar- Downtown Loft 32:05-34:33 11. Kafari- What if 34:34-36:50

I can’t believe the half of the year is almost over and although remember how I celebrated new year’s from 2020 to 21. It was a great party and I enjoyed it, maybe because I was happy with myself. Then 2021 passed and this new years eve celebration was completely garbage. The recent eve was a little bit better, unfortunately I’m still in this hole and none of my goals I had through over all those years have I reached. What lifted me up a little was the movie four rooms from 1995 I have seen on December 30th. So to all of you. Please stay strong, try to keep faith and trust in yourself. There are people who can understand you it’s sometimes hard to find them.

I may have never experienced some of these but I wanna describe what this playlist feels like; running outside with friends while you play, hanging out at some place wether it be a ditch or even a park with your friends, dancing alone in your room, staying at the pool during summer, elementary in the early 2000s, riding bikes or scooters down the street, living in an apartment but always staying outside, something recorded on an old camera, your parents/guardian playing with you when you were little, smoking outside while the sun is setting, early 2000s friendships when no one was big on phones as they are now, spray painting at some abandoned place while cicadas make noises, school in the late 80s to early 90s, thrifting at some store, sitting on the roof of your house, when your parents didnt take you to a waterpark or pool during the summer so you had to use the hose outside of the house, sitting outside and thinking, having a fun time outside with someone you maybe love or appreciate, hanging out in someones room in silence as you both do your own thing, running away with someone, dying your hair by yourself with no experience, sneaking out to go with friends, being alone at a party.

Keep your head up my guy, my job let me go 3 days before the new year, and here we are, still doin college, finding new jobs, still chasing dreams, no matter the setbacks, you just gotta keep going! And these awesome jams definitely help. For sure adding them to my study playlist and late night drive sesh playlists ha keep going, don't ever stop. And that goes for everyone here in the comments section. Nothing but love <3

This whole playlist is pretty much the vibe of me growing up, learning who I was, making friends and lovers. Got dumped and work full time now, sometimes it feels like hell with no time to myself and no one to spend time with but this music grounds me

Just an endless stream of nostalgia happening before my eyes.

melancholy embraces me every day, it's not bad..., loneliness surrounds me, the universe is so infinite and vast, it makes me feel like just a measly grain of sand, is anyone there? why this incessant search for nothingness? nothing has been enough to fill me up, i wanted someone to hold, but i'd rather be alone, cause i can't just look at the people i love and feel happy with the sparkle in your eyes, I feel knowing everything, but at the same time knowing nothing, I feel that when nothing matters, everything matters, and I'm pressed for it, is there anyone there!?!?!? ☄️

"Ah shit, here we go again"

Feels like a warm cup of tea on a cold winter day

I'm 19 years old, have no friends or social life and no job. tonight is New Year and I'm spending it with my parents, in front of the TV... Maybe for some people it's cool, but for me it makes me sad because I would like to be with friends or a boyfriend and go out on New Year's Eve to have fun. but I can't... it's make me wanna cry tbh (sorry if there are spelling mistakes I speak French)

i am absolutely obsessed with Within and Apart by Orchid Mantis. Ive never heard a song like that until now