POV:you’re on the verge of giving up(vent playlist)

i rlly need to pin this bu sorry i can read all of your or reply but do know i open every single one even if it takes me hours

Anyone else have sudden boosts of confidence, and then next thing u know ur questioning ur existence and u end up listening to vent music all night bc ur too scared to vent to someone else??...just me??alr-

yea i always feel like giving up but then i think, "where do i go then?", literally existential crisis

I need to cry but I can't get anything out of my eyes. that hit hard.

When study piles up due to attendance, and everyone slowly leaves your life that's when this title hits the hardest.

You know that feeling? When you are wondering if anyone would really care if you were gone... Yeah, that's what I'm feeling right now.

I'm proud of you for waking up. I'm proud of you for brushing your hair. I'm proud of you for breathing. I'm proud of you for making your bed. I'm proud of you for eating. I'm proud of you for TRYING to eat. I'm proud of you for drinking water, I'm proud of you for being here. I'm proud of you for being you. I'm proud of you for smiling. I'm proud of you for continuing on even when things are difficult for you. I'm proud of you for standing up. I'm proud of you for blinking. I'm proud of you for getting out of bed after spending the whole day in bed. I'm proud of you for brushing your teeth. I'm proud of you for standing up. I'm proud of you for sitting down. I'm proud of you for defending yourself. I'm proud of you for believing in yourself. I'm proud of you for simply trying. I'm proud of you for being alive. IM PROUD OF YOU. ❤

When you want to die completely but there's just that one person that keeps you alive.

Dear person whoever reads this, Hey, you, yes, I am talking right to you. I hope you will see yourself with the eyes I see you one day, because I can tell you have some awesome music taste :) You’re such a beautiful human being and worth and enough. I hope you know that you do only need yourself to be happy, I know society build up the standard that whenever you’re alone you’re not living a happy live. But in fact that is not true, if you start to realize that you actually deserve all the good things happening to you, you will treat yourself a lot nicer. I hope you let yourself rest, don’t beat yourself up over past mistakes, over regret, and over everything your mind wants to destroy you. I wish I could remove all those demons inside of your head because you deserve to feel happy. If you ever feel lonely then watch the sky, because you know, someone, at the same time is watching the sky too, maybe feeling the same way..I am glad you exist and I hope you won’t ever remove your own spot in this world, maybe you don’t feel like you belong here but, Angel, then build your home here. I don’t want you to leave this world unhappy. I want you to live every little second, I want you to feel alive, I don’t want you to see yourself just existing. You deserve it. Whatever happened, it’s not your fault, the demons in your head recognize that you have a beautiful heart, they want to take it because they have never seen such beautiful heart as yours, so why let them win over you? . You’re not selfish for isolating yourself, but you deserve to talk to someone. If you’re reading this than please never forget to breath and smile. Don’t live up to other standards! It’s your story and not theirs. Life for those who couldn’t, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug like its your last one. I love you and send you hugs. You’re so strong, you’re still here, and I am proud of you. YOU ARE NOT USELESS. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE WORTH IT. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE LOVED. READ THAT AGAIN. I AM GLAD YOU EXIST. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE NOT A PROBLEM. YOU ARE HUMAN AND YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID. READ THAT AGAIN. You’re not a burden to anyone, don’t be afraid to talk, to use your voice. You’re beautiful inside out. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. READ THAT AGAIN. I WISH I COULD HUGH YOU RIGHT NOW, SO A VIRTUAL HUG WILL DO. It hurts me to see you’re in pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you. I love u I love u I love u I love u I love u please don’t go. I am sorry that no one is hearing you, I am sorry no one is noticing that you have lost yourself. I wish I could take your pain away, it hurts me to see the pain in your eyes. I love you trough my words and I mean it. I just want you to stay, hold on a little longer okay? Please? For me.?? I hope you have an awesome day/ morning/ evening/ night. If it’s night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you. If it’s day for you, don’t start it by such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits. If it’s evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed. And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re stronger than you think, I know you will make it :) All I want for you is to stay and feel alive. Now wipe those tears away and smile for me, you really don’t know much a smile can brighten someone’s day, do you? I hope one day yours will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore, because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world. I need you here with me :). Remember crying is not weakness, let it out as much as you can but don’t let the emotion control you by giving up. It’s okay, you’re here, you’re safe, you can let it out. Did anyone asked you, how you are feeling today? If not, how are you really? I don’t think you’re doing good, but you will feel good at one point. Don’t give yourself up. I am sorry you feel misunderstood. But anyone who gets to be with you, doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :). Enough with beating up yourself for today, okay?! - The stranger that cares about you more than anything. I hope this is enough for you to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. I hope you can stay. This is your sign to stay and treat yourself with love, you deserve it. And in case no one told you today, I am so proud of you. I hope you will remember my words :) Until tomorrow, my friend :)

vent: I just feel non-existent. I feel left out. I put in effort but rarely receive it, but at the same time, I feel guilty for not being a good enough friend. Lately, I haven't been saying much, just to see if anyone would say anything but nope. There's this one quote "If your absence never bothered them, your presence never mattered." It really hit me hard. I also have this feeling, that I am not able to help people but I want to. there's just this resistance and fear. I feel so useless. I have also just always been depressed, anxious, and super stressed. I may divert it for a bit but it never lasts. Each time this wave of shitty feelings comes it makes me want to give up even more, slowly losing myself and the people around me. I hope yall feel better. Take care of yourself! There is hope even if your brain tells you there isn't. I LOVE YOU! <3

Hits extra hard when you feel like you only existed so you could fulfill your parent's dreams and pay them back for taking care of you<33

I just entered highschool and I was doing great! It wasn't until today (4 weeks into school) when I started tearing up (by that, I mean full on sobbing) at night. I used to do this all the time in middle school, since 6th grade. I was hoping that highschool would be better and I wouldn't do this again. I was so proud of myself and then I just let it all out tonight. Im worried it'll end up like last year. For 3 years, going on 4, I've been a sad person. No motivation, lack of sleep, and lack of attention. Hopefully I can move past all of this.

On the outside I am a very happy easy going person. When I am alone this is the playlist of my life. Wishing certain things were different about my life and then ending the playlist with "it is what it is..."

I'm considered the "therapist". ( Ig a vent or rant idk ) When people vent, I'm quiet and don't make comments or jokes. BUT when I vent, ( Idk if this is wrong or not ), someone starts venting over me and I'm left with going out of my way to comfort them. The few times I trust people, I get interrupted. I don't have a problem with this but...I just want someone to understand how I feel too. I always feel like I should kms but I think about the ones I love and how they would feel. Update: My friends learned how to respect me and eachother :)

i hate being the therapy friend. i hate always being talked over. i hate never being good enough. i hate my mother and my father. i hate being left alone. i hate myself. i hate life. i hate everything.

' i need to cry, but i cant. get anything out of my mind '

Whenever my friends vent, I give them paragraphs on why they deserve better, followed by others saying apologies. When I vent, I just get "oof" and "I'm sorry" For once I want someone to give me paragraphs on why I deserve better. Just once..

Vent. Put on a smile, don't cry, act your age, you're so immature. It's so sick of hearing that, every day another phrase comes out of someones mouth, and it keeps me up at night. I can't fucking take it, i honestly can't i'm sick of everyone going behind my back and stabbing me in it, i'm sick of helping people, i'm sick of being this nice person i am. But i can't stop, i can't stop helping people i can't stop being nice. I can't go behind anyones back, i can never find the courage to. I never have the courage to speak my mind and i can never figure out why

When you really are on the verge of ending it all:

To be completely honest, the only thing holding me back from ending it all is my hatred of losing, and I feel like if I actually went through with my thoughts, I'd be giving up and admitting defeat is the last thing I want to do after fighting for this long against my suicidal thoughts