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Published 2023-06-07

i wrote personal late one night in the face of what i could already sense would be an impending rejection. it's a reflection on the fact that we can't help but take even the most well-intentioned, polite, considerate rejections personally, despite the fact that we're not supposed to. it's about wondering whether i'm the common denominator and why i continue to fall anyways despite the crippling fear that someone won't feel the way i do. this is one of my favorites i've written in the past few months and i'm very happy to share it. lyrics below:

[VERSE]
by now it should be familiar
but nothing ever seems to hurt
like the day when i see nothing in your eyes

and my optimism stays misguided
my head says no, but my heart’s driving
down a two-way street on the wrong side

[PRE-CHORUS]
so don’t bother with the niceties
don’t bother with the speech
i already know what you want
i know it isn’t me

[CHORUS]
so please don’t be another heartbreak
don’t even start to try
i’m not equipped to handle
another premature goodbye

and i know that you won’t mean to
but i’ll hurt just the same
i know it’s not how i’m supposed to feel
but it’s still personal
so don’t be the one i have to blame

[VERSE]
i’ve put my heart together back haphazard
sloppy stitches crossing caverns
whatever’s good as long as you can’t see

and the pieces hold for long enough
a temporary patching up
but with every beat the thread is coming free

[PRE-CHORUS]

[CHORUS]

[BRIDGE]
don’t know how to describe it
when the fire’s slowly dying
and i’m picking out the pieces of you from between my ribs

and when you’re finally gone that’s
when i’m left to acknowledge
it was my fault all along for falling, wasn’t it?

[CHORUS]

so don't be the one i have to blame

All Comments (3)

@izzysGalaxyxo 1 year ago

this is stuff u see blowing up?!? this is beautiful ! please keep going you'll blow up someday
@Nibazzador 1 year ago

Love this so much. Please, don't never stop making music.