its me, i’m the problem | a playlist [requested]

This playlist was requested, so if you have any other playlist requests msg me on discord !! im not on acid #/0439 timestampsssss: 00:00 the landing — duster 02:54 Brand New City — Mitski 05:05 Milk — Jack Stauber 06:04 Hey kids — Molina 09:58 Daddy issues — The neighbourhood 14:16 Money — The drums 18:07 Idontwannabeyouanymore — Billie eilish 21:25 Hostage — Billie Eilish 25:21 Softcore — The neighbourhood 28:49 Black Out Days — Phantogram 32:35 Will he? — Joji 35:52 Vas — Jagger Fin i love youuuuu have a good day :)

Fun fact: It all ends so u might as well do whatever tf u wanna do with your life

you know you’re in for something when it starts with bojack

"Your worst sin is that you have destroyed and betrayed yourself, for nothing"- Dostoevsky

Yes Im the guilty Nobody made me this way I ruined me, MYSELF It's no ones fault But it is mine

yeah.. i''m the problem, not you.

I feel like I ruin things, all the time. I don’t even know what I’m doing wrong.

I literally cannot tell if it was me being toxic or if it was them and it kills me every day.

I feel the opening speech, I ruined my friendship and blamed it on him, I still do most of the time but it was me and my stupidity and jealousy. I'm a horrible friend and person, but this Playlist makes it better.

never knew accepting that im the problem could be so hard

That's why sometimes i tell myself that i wasn't made to be a friend or a lover it feels like i wasn't made to be human in the first place.

It really hurts y’know? Doing something shitty and then feeling bad about it but the other person won’t forgive you, or maybe they hide the fact they hurt. Then its the cycle all over again. Nothing gets better. You just get worse.

I manipulated my friends and filled them up with bullshit, convinced myself it was their fault, developed anger issues and superiority complex. I started gaslighting my friends and for a long time I refused to get help. I would lock myself up in my room for days and start ruining every relationship I had. I kept telling myself it was someone else’s fault because they where “selfish” and didn’t understand how I felt. But they did nothing, a few months I realized it was me, after denying it profoundly, I figured out I only hurt people who come close to me, so I ended everything with everyone. This playlist helps me think about the things that I’ve done, and i still have a long way to go. I don’t think I deserve to be forgiven by myself and by others, but thank you for making this playlist.

I'm the reason for every single thing that happened between my friendships. It was all my fault. I'm such a horrible friend, I don't deserve them.

THIS PLAYLIST THIS PLAYLIST RIGHT HERE YALL THIS IS THE BEST IVE NEVER FALLEN IN LOVE WITH A PLAYLIST SO MUCH IT MAKES ME FEEL SO SEEN LIKE THE SONGS OMG I JUST- WOW LOVE IT ALL THE WAY

"The funniest part of being me, is that i will always be the problem, for either them or myself, no matter how much i change, or how much times i do something differently, i would find the problem, it was me, and it will always be me, i don't even know the solution, i am sorry for the problems i caused..."

It’s like a defense mechanism to blame yourself It keeps you quiet and keeps you from feeling hurt by others Makes you feel like you have control and can always do better and always act better, tomorrow.

i'm just a spoiled child and my parents deserved a better eldest daughter i should leave them alone. i know they love me and maybe sometimes it's not obvious. the problem is me. i'm the one who screws up. who can't focus. i depend on them to live, and i hate that. i'm just an useless spoiled child who should have lived what they went through. my dad went through teen parents, fighting all the time, economical problems, and still survived. found love, a great job and made a happy family and a great, smart woman that chose to marry him. my mom went through severe mommy issues, her mom was never there, and when she actually was there, my grandma always liked my aunt better. my mom did her best at being the eldest daughter and is still in therapy nowdays for the parental trauma. she is such a smart, hardworking woman who wants the best for her children. i think my mom deserved a perfect eldest daughter who at least could remember things, do more than her younger siblings, not an obnoxious bother who wants to be better but doesn't know how. i think my dad deserved a good daughter who didn't get mad at his jokes. i'm too sensitive. they deserved better from me

I'm always the problem because I'm too selfish. Then I remind myself I'm too tired to be selfless, but then I feel guilty about justifying my rotten attitude. In the end it's just a cycle of berating myself with no actual results to show for it. I've pushed everyone away. At this rate I think I'm going to end up alone for the rest of my life

i ruined everything and there's no excuse at all. at first, i searched for anyone to blame it on, my family, my friends, school but no matter how i tried to divert the blame to someone else, i knew deep down it was my fault and my fault only. i think the guilt will stay with me forever and it fucking sucks but i know damn well i deserve it.