I forgive you - Halsey [Unreleased]

Hey, little disclaimer, I know sharing an artist’s leaked music can be deemed problematic and unethical. And I totally understand how this video contributes to further dissemination. However, this song was not leaked by me personally, I just stumbled across it as an adamant Halsey fan. It’s my belief this song deserves to be heard now that someone has wrongfully put it out into the public domain. Shouldn’t have been done for nothing. Fans will surely appreciate it, I know this. Nevertheless, I do understand anyone who disagrees with my decision and I accept the responsibility that comes with it. Thanks guys, and enjoy! 🫶🏻

Shes singing about something called repetition cumpulsion. Being doomed to recreate your childhood over and over again in hopes of changing the outcome of the things. Its hard to see it until someone points it out and then suddenly it becomes clear. Her father was a narcissist and he doomed her to repeat that cycle over and over again. Hes still torturing her and has the audacity to be mad at someone else for doing exactly what he taught her to accept.

I think this song is about Halsey feeling ignored as a child. This is one of her most saddest and most beautiful songs. ❤

I hope Halsey releases this song one day. A song has never struck a nerve so well as this one has. This has made me realize forgiving my parents doesn’t mean erasing all the pain they caused me.

Thank you Ashley ❤ [Verse 1] Where do I begin? I'm braver when I'm far away and speaking on a whim You told me that you'd kill him if he touch me once again But you're as bad as him For every finger that he lifted I have memories you twisted, and recitals that you missed Broken knees you never kissed And I told my therapist She said there's still a little girl in me you're holding by the wrist And she and I can coexist For I'll be spending an eternity with lots of narcissists [Chorus] So this town ain't big enough for both of us And I don't have the strength to take control of us I bite my tongue so hard I start to swallow it And I forgive you, but I still remember all of it [Verse 2] I wonder if you'd like me if things were different If I wasn't who I am and insignificant I only wish you could have left her out of it She's never done a thing without a doubt of it And she needs me more than anything She still has both your wedding rings I love you both, but once in a while I'd love the chance to be the only child 'Cause everyone needs something all the time [Chorus] This town ain't big enough for both of us And I don't have the strength to take control of us I bite my tongue so hard I start to swallow it And I forgive you, but I still remember all of it [Bridge] If you ask me what this song's about, I'll lie 'Cause I don't have the strength to not deny And I still want you to love me deep inside And I still need your approval though I try [Chorus] This town ain't big enough for both of us And I don't have the strength to take control of us I bite my tongue so hard I start to swallow it And I forgive you, but I still remember all of it I still remember all of it

this is so beautiful yet so sad, it reminds me of “sorry” somehow, even the names are matching.

It's sad that Ashley didn't release this song 'cause it's so beautiful This song reminds me of my father. It seems that he almost never noticed my achievements and always reproached me for any slightest mistake. He practically did not participate in my life, and if he was around, bad things happened. And the line “And recitals that you missed. Broken knees you never kissed" is also close to me, as an example. He hated me simply 'cause I exist, he said that I ruined his life and that it would be better if I never existed. Sometimes, I think that it would be if everything were different.This man beat my mother and older brother. It seems to me that he is incapable of loving anyone but himself Thanks to Ashley for her music, and to you for posting this here There may be errors in the text, I don't speak English, I used a translator

This hits hard. Trauma. Hate. Feeling broken.

Im a die hard Halsey fan, never knew this existed before ! Omg !

This hits so close to home, I was bawling at 3 am when I first heard this. Halsey’s music was the first to hit my soul and their music makes me feel so heard in so many aspects. I love you Ashley♥️

My favorite part of the song is “if you ask me what this songs about I’ll lie..” When it’s more than one thing it gets harder to explain…❤Halsey

That bridge really made me break down into tears 😭😭😭 If I could I would sing this to my mum

I feel this to my core. When she said "told me you would kill him if he touched me once again, but youre as bad as him." I spent my entire life being beat on by men, and two of the worst ones would thrraten the other to me, but they both had left bruises on me, so I always wondered why they were so hypocritical. "He cant hurt you but I can."

Thank you for sharing this song on here so anyone who stumbled upon it can appreciate it for what it is. As someone in my 30’s and still dealing with the aftermath and effects of having two narcissists as parents… this song hits hard. The neglect, the abuse, all of it. Thank you, Halsey - if you ever happen to see this message. You aren’t alone. For my own sanity I too had to forgive them, but I won’t forget either.

where do i begin i'm braver when i'm far away and speaking on a whim you told me that you'd kill him if he touched me once again but you're as bad as him for every finger that he lifted, i have memories you twisted and recitals that you missed broken knees you never kissed and i told my therapist she said there's still a little girl in me you're holding by the wrist and she and i can't coexist or i'll be spending an eternity with lots of narcissists so this town ain't big enough for both of us and i don't have the strength to take control of us i bite my tongue so hard i start to swallow it and i forgive you but i still remember all of it i wonder if you'd like me if things were different if i wasn't who i am and insignificant i only wish you could have left her out of it she's never done a thing without the doubt of it and she needs me more than anything she still has both your wedding rings i love you both but once in a while i'd love the chance to be the only child 'cus everyone needs something all the time this town ain't big enough for both of us and i don't have the strength to take control of us i bite my tongue so hard i start to swallow it and i forgive you but i still remember all of it if you ask me what this song's about, i'll lie 'cus i don't have the strength to not deny and i still want you to love me deep inside and i still need your approval though i try this town ain't big enough for both of us and i don't have the strength to take control of us i bite my tongue so hard i start to swallow it and i forgive you but i still remember all of it i still remember all of it

Lyrics: Where do I begin? I'm Braver when I'm far away and speaking on a whim. Told me that you'd kill him if he touched me, once again. But you're as bad as him. For every finger that you lifted, I have memories you twisted. And recitals that you missed. Broken knees you never kissed. And I told my therapist. She said there's still a little girl in me you're holdong by the wrist. And she and I can't co-exist. Or I'll be spending an eternity with lots of narcissists, so, This town ain't big enough for both of us. And I don't have the strength to take control of us. I bite my tongue so hard I start to swallow it. And I forgive you, but I still remember all of it. I wonder if you'd like me if things were different. If I wasn't who I am and insignificant. I only wish you could have left her out of it. She's never done a thing without the doubt of it. And she needs me more than anything. She still has both your wedding rings. I love you both, but once in a while, I'd love the chance to be the only child. Cuz everyone needs something all the time. This town ain't big enough for both of us. And I don't have the strength to take control of us. I bite my tongue so hard I start to swallow it. And I forgive you, but I still remember all of it. If you ask me what this song's about, I'll lie. Cuz I don't have the strength to not deny. And I still want you to love me, deep inside. And I still need your approval, though I tried. This town ain't big enough for both of us. And I don't have the strength to take control of us. I bite my tongue so hard I start to swallow it. And I forgive you, but I still remember all of it. I still remember all of it.

Childhood trauma teaching us to pick narcissists but we have brainspotting therapy now ❤❤❤ love you halsey. I cannot wait to make music with you

This deserves an official release damn.

THIS is my favorite Halsey song!!! I feel it in my soul. This hits home....

This song broke my heart