when night comes, i'm is the most alone in the world; a playlist is slowed down

Why am I not the first choice...?( a sad slowed playlist) - https://youtu.be/zpsUw0GP9xM

Suicide is stupid? You wanna know what is stupid? Hurting someone so much emotionally, they think suicide is the "only" answer...

When night comes...I finally have peace.

"Sleep isn't sleep anymore it's an escape from reality"

It's 1:09A.M. I'm laying in my bed thinking about what I could have done better, HOW I could have done better. My future. Slumped against the wall in my apartment, on a cloudy and rainy day, staring down at the cars that pass by, their blinkers and headlights going off, signalling every turn, every break. I'll watch as my tear stained face flows with tears once again, wanting him to have stayed. Wishing he were here with me. But deep down I know he's not, and that's what makes me start to sob, in sorrow and helplessness. The night progresses, and I'm alone in my bed, away from my window. Completely turned around and looking at the light the moon shines onto my bedroom wall, and all I can think about. . . Is how beautiful he is. He's beautiful tonight. I think he knows too, otherwise he wouldn't have shone to me again.

Everyone always says it'll get better but it never does.

A Sad Poem By: Me I would love to be a bird To fly high, and never look back I am incapable of love, unlike a bird Birds love their babies, their mates, and most importantly, their nests I don’t have a nest, which is all I have ever wanted I just wanted a home, friends, a family Instead, I am stuck at the bottom of the ocean An endless abyss No way out, other than falling asleep and never waking up Although, why would I do that? To what end, would suicide accomplish? Nothing And that is the problem I have a dilemma I do not want to be here And yet there is nowhere else for me to go Who would miss me? My friends? I do not have any My family? I am a detriment to them Myself? I would definitely miss myself I like myself I like the way I laugh The way I make other people laugh My intellect And yet, I hate myself I hate the way I get angry I hate the way I do not love anyone or anything I hate life I wanna leave so so bad

I'm listening to this thinking, wow. I attempted almost 3 times already. Yet I'm still here living, alive. More alive then I'll ever be and I'm enjoying that. It may not be that important to you but for me it's impressive and I'm proud of myself for overcoming something that took over me. This playlist just gives so much comfort. I'm alive, and I'm proud of who I have become.

"When you feel alone, look at the sky. And see that the sun is alone and doesn't stop shining." - Just a brazillian boy

Dear stranger.. I want to tell you that even even though I don´t know you and I'm probably lots of miles away, I want to wipe your tears..I want to give you a big long hug and tell you everything is going to be okay, that you´re not alone, even when you feel like your world is falling apart, I'll be here to help you rebuild your hope, hope that everything will go its place, hope in you, because I have hope in you! I know you're an amazing person, who deserves a lot of love, deserves to feel loved, deserves to eat, to drink, to be healthy, to be happy and be alive...this world would never be the same without you, i want to see your smile, I want to see your eyes shining bright again like they once used too, I want to see your dreams coming to true and I want you to stay. Please stay, you´re very important to me, I want you to remember that you're not alone and you can always go to this comment and talk if you need, I'll always try to answer you whenever I can <3 I'm so sorry you feel that way..it breaks my heart to see how much you´re suffering..but it can get better, I promise.. You´re worthy. You´re enough. You´re not a burden. Your feelings matter. You deserve to feel loved. You deserve to be happy. You deserve to breathe and you deserve to be and FEEL alive. I don´t you only to stay in suffer, I want you to be here and feel happy for being happy, I know it's hard, but I know you can do it. You're so strong. You're a soldier and you're going to win this batlle, if no one told you this today yet, I'm really proud of you!!! I'm proud of the wonderful person you are even if you don´t think so. It doesn´t matter what mistakes you've made in the past,, everyone makes mistakes!! And what really matters is that we learn with them, and I know you´re amazing despite all the things you might have gone through. If someone broke your heart, I'm really sorry, sorry for them don´t seeing the amazing person you are and haven´t treated you the way you deserve. If some friend hurted you and betrayed you or left you behind, I'm really sorry..I know how much it hurts, but if they did that to you then maybe they weren't true friends to begin with. If you lost someone, I'm so sorry for your loss...I know they're watching you from above and want your happiness above anything else <3 I wish you the best things in this world. You are important and please, never underestimate your value, because there´s nothing to compare with how much needed and special you are. So please, don´t give up fighting, ok? Togheter we can go through this, and I know you can make it! I believe in you!! I believe in all of you and I love you. You´re stars that lighten up my day, so keep shining here togheter, in this world, and I hope I made your day a litlle bright as well..I love you dear humans <3 If you read this far, thank you very much. I hope you have a great day, , night, afternoon, evening. And remember, it can get better, tomorrow´s another day, and I hope you stay... *You can share this message with whoever needs it, you don´t need any credits, what matters is that you´re helping someone <3

Time stamp: 0:00 - 4:38 • The Wisp Sings 5:10 - 8:50 • The Night We Met 8:51 - 13:25 • You’re Somebody Else 13:25 - 17:24 • Moral of The Story 17:26 - 22:55 • I Found 22:55 - 26:49 •Idk You Yet 26:49 - 32:09 •i love you 32:09 - 38:31 • All I Want 38:31 - 42:56 • I’m Fallin’ 42:56 - 47:19 •Heather (the end got cut off on this one) 47:19 - 51:58 • Where’s My Love 51:58 - 56:45 Already Gone 56:45 - 1:00:38 Heal 1:00:38 - 1:03:50 • Half A Man 1:03:50 - 1:07:58 •Train Reck 1:07:58 - 1:09:51 •Savior 1:09:51 - 1:14:05 No namer, again (Pin this, this took time 😭🙏🏼) Wait guys tysm i didnt expect this to actually go viral💀💀. Ty for the support I love you

Look at me! There's nothing in my heart! I don't feel pain any longer This hole was opened up by this world of hell - Obito Uchiha

People would say, "talk to someone", "life matters", "stay strong, things will get better" but its exhausted to keep hoping something that never come. At the end these kind of playlist give us comfort cause our mind will wander around and thats the only time you had peace of mine

You think it’s gotten better and you’re so happy, but then it hits you again like a bus and you realize it never went away 😔

The only timeii have, is the nights, when everything is quiet, no one's going to talk to me, the stars and moon are my comfort music is there to drown my thoughts, its lonely but its so good

This comment section is my home now..

This is the music that would play as I lay on the floor, reflecting on how shitty life can be because of the people in your life, the choices you have to make that might affect others, how little time I have with my parents here in this life time … wanting to be with the one I love … having people judge me based on my decisions .. Life of a middle eastern girl is not easy.

I'm sick right now; I just want to sleep forever. I am going to sleep hearing this, and tomorrow will be better.

I am an over thinker but due to exam pressure I don't have time to over think, I took a day off and listened to this, it finally let me over think and now in happy

Listening to this while sitting outside while it rains>>>>