Autistic

Very proud of you for bringing this out to your YouTube community. My wife says she thinks I’m on the spectrum somewhere but never been tested. I’ve read some things and watched some videos and agree somewhere on there but not to the point of getting diagnosed. It definitely opens your eyes to why you do some things the way you do them.

I was also diagnosed very late in life. You touched on many themes that I've been going through. It is definitely helpful to finally have some answers to many long outstanding questions. Being on the spectrum isn't a curse, in many ways it's a gift with some caveats. I think it's great and courageous to talk publicly about ASD, I think there are many more of us who simply haven't had their awakening moment (yet).

Hey Smerkin, came across this video while looking around at Satisfactory videos. Your path is very familiar to me. IT/Autism/streaming/depression/etc.. I am happy to see that you are being honest with yourself, as I can understand how masking and headspace can prevent those that from happening.

Well man as long as your happy thats all that matters. If ever come back to twitch would love to watch especially satisfactory cuz your make interesting builds. But you your self comes first before anything! Glad your taking care of self.

Welcome to the family, reunions are never because socializing is hard. Glad to hear getting diagnosed has helped you understand yourself better, it was quite the life change for me, also diagnosed far too late in life, but like a wise Snutt once told me, it be like it do.

Thank you for sharing this, It does fill in many gaps and explains a lot. Safe Journeys.

I'm only seeing this now, 8 months later, but I'm happy to see that you've made the right choices for you and you're looking after yourself. Thank you for the time you did spend with the community, you served as great company through some very lonely times. I hope you're doing well! -Kyuubi

Long time twitch viewer here: Thank you for sharing !!! It think this was not an easy video to make! Greetings from Germany!

So good to hear from you Smerky. Glad you and Randy are doing well “pioneering” your new adventure! Wishing you the very best!

Dr Richard Eisenmajer at the ASD Clinic diagnosed me about 2 years ago. Good to hear from you again mate

Thank you so much for this update, Smerk. It’s great to hear that this journey is one that has been fruitful in that you understand yourself better and I imagine it opens up more doors for you to work with yourself - rather than against yourself. Ofc I look forward to anything you choose to do/make/release in the future, but most importantly I just wish you to be happy and healthy. It’s the only thing that matters! Also thanks for including an update on Randy! ❤

Hey, so good to see you looking so relaxed. Really pleased you are coming to terms with yourself and your diagnosis. Sometimes knowing your 'triggers' can help so much in how you deal with certain situations and people. I'll be honest I do miss your streams, especially seeing Randy (I used to have a GS called Molly - I still miss her after eight years) but at the end of the day you have to do what is right for you. Post when you can, its great to see these updates from you - all the best; Farrelly

Good story, thanks for sharing! Good luck with your new chapter in life.

Good to see you, Smerkin. I'm glad to hear that you and Randy are doing well and enjoying life. Thank you for sharing your amazing story and I look forward to seeing some more videos in the future when you're able to. Take good care of yourself and Randy too, of course. 🙂

I wish I had seen this sooner. I have some catch up to do! Thank you for the share, Smerkin. It's a great thing when we can find explanations, and know ourselves a little better. All the best to Randy, you, and your partner! <3

Very happy you are doing well. Thank you for sharing your journey. Years later, I still employ what I learned from you in Satisfactory.

I'm glad you're doing well my guy! Finding happiness and understanding and focusing on you. All the best for the future, for you and your partner. Whatever you do, I'm certain you will put 100% commitment into anything you do.

Hey Smerkin, Thank you for venting your thoughts. A very packed video of information. You’ve done a good thing and opened up to us. You didn’t have too. I also want to congratulate you on your move with your partner. I hope this doesn’t effect further streams in the future. Nevertheless, I respect you and always have my friend. Your a great guy. All the very best , Englishman

Glad that you managed to find the truth and correct your path. Have a good time with your partner and be happy in what you will be doing.

a little late with watching this vid, but i still wanna say thanks for the update smerkin. i am happy that you managed to find out about your condition and wish you all the best for dealing with it and the future! you go and take care of yourself first and foremost, personal wellbeing is the most important thing as far as i am concerned. also, i want to say a really big thank you for your streams! you provided me with a nice environment, in which i always felt confortable in, and you also enabled me to expand my horizon and find a lot of different streamers/people, which i am still in contact with. all the best to you and, once again, a verry big thank you! cya around!