1 year living alone after my marriage ended | reflecting, struggles, how I’m celebrating🎉

I’ve also been single for a year and having to battle so many emotions like anger and loneliness. Trying to regain my self esteem was hard but being on a journey of celibacy and enjoying my singleness has helped. I wish you all the best Lauren! Thank you for this video

Listening to you as somebody who has gone through partners with similar stories, I'm impressed how mature you are and how well you've handled things. I can sit here and tell you how immature and insecure your ex was for making you feel like you weren't enough but time will reveal how wrong he was. Mine made me feel unattractive and worthless, then broke by heart by kicking me out of our apt. Years later, after working on myself, I graduated college and discovered fitness while he dropped out and became overweight, something he would constantly bully me about. I've come to understand ppl have deep rooted issues and demons they're battling and unfairly project them onto their partners. In the meantime, it's important that you keep working on yourself. You got this Lauren! You are beautiful and loved ❤

You are such a strong woman of God and true warrior! Keep moving! “Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead,” ‭‭Philippians‬ ‭3‬:‭13‬ ‭

I went through a really intense break up when I was around your age, and 7 years later sometimes I still feel the effects and think how I could have done things differently. I’m in a very good place now with a happy relationship now, but the pathways that developed in my brain still light up on occasion and make me think through all the hurt. I’d say around the 2-3 year mark I really felt I was free from it. When feelings about it come up now, it feels like opening a container of old food to check if it’s bad: - Sometimes it smells and it’s gross and obvious - Sometimes you want to just avoid it if it’s not stinking - Sometimes you open it and it seems fine but you know you still need to throw it out - Sometimes you realize it’s best to just toss it without needing to know I enjoy hearing how you’re progressing through your own journey. Your divorce is different than my breakup and we seem like very different people, but the experiences you share feel very relatable and I hope you continue to heal in the ways you need. Thank you for sharing all this so honestly. Also happy birthday!

Never try to reason with a narcissist . They don't feel like we do #noaffect

No one talks about moving and attachment to an old apartment. I also don’t miss my relationship with my ex, but I do miss my apartment. I was so comfortable in it and I loved the decor we had done together so I have a hard time accepting that I don’t live there anymore 😢

When I moved into the home I’m in now, I constantly felt like it wasn’t my “safe space” and would go over to my parents’ house almost every day because that is where I felt most comfortable. It took me a few months of decorating and trying to spend intentional time here (writing, crafting, even baking since I’d often go to my parents’ house to do those things even though I had enough room in my kitchen to do it). Without me realizing it, I had started to associate my home with that sense of safeness, and now it’s my favorite place in the whole world! It takes time, but I know you’ll get there! Sometimes having my family over for dinner at my house helps, too, because it’s a small way to not only get together with them, but also to “break my house in” as me being the person living in it. Much love to you Lauren! you’re doing amazing!

You're a trooper Wishing you love and light You deserve all the joy in the world ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

I love your honesty. "Let got of expectations..." I love it. Thank you for posting

thank you for opening up Lauren! Proud of you!

Thank you for being so brave and sharing your experience. Even though my experience was different in many ways, it is so very encouraging just knowing someone is going through something similar at the same time I am, even though I don't KNOW you, it makes me feel less alone by a long run. So thank you internet friend. <3

I really feel you on the self limiting beliefs, pretty much ticked all the same ones for myself. Haven't even fully broken up even though the wind is blowing that way, but after 6 years together it really feels like I've lost ability to function and started to lean on my partner as a crutch for pretty basic adulting. Happy to hear your journey. Thanks for sharing

❤❤overcoming limiting beliefs is extremely important.

I have a lot of these same struggles. Thank you so much for sharing 🤍

Congrats on one year! You're doing amazing. Watching your journey has made me really happy and hopeful.

Inspiring things keep smiling

Be happy he left. Be thankful u are alive. He left peacefully. I hate u went thru this!

This is making me think a million times before marrying a man .

Where are you? Its been so long a whole 4 weeks an entire month.😱

Did you delete your Instagram account? It's all gone!