I'm not good enough ✩ vent playlist

0:00 - 3:30 ✧YKNWIM✧ 3:30 - 6:06 ✧Alien blues✧ 6:06 - 9:49 ✧Tired✧ 9:49 - 14:30 ✧Burning Pile✧ 14:30 - 19:49 ✧This side of paradise✧ 19:49 - 24:34 ✧What about me✧ 24:34 - 29:01 ✧Love you more than myself✧ 29:01 - 31:28 ✧Prom dress✧ 31:28 - 35:50 ✧Kimi wa dekinai ko

"you're just lazy" "you're not trying your best" "you've done better last time, why not now?" "why can't you be smart like you used to be?" maybe i'm just exhausted now :)

that feeling when someone goes "I thought you were smart" even if its jokingly and the sadness you feel at the bottom of your fucking heart because of it

pov: you get called annoying when you try to match their vibe :/

Virtual hugs for everyone out there who is going through something <3

I just feel like I'm never good enough, I want to vent and tell my friends my problems but I wouldn't want to burden them, My life's a mess but there's nothing I can do about it other than wait until I'm finally free from this world

its funny how i tought it was over... funny how im crying over the same things after all these years

I just want to feel accomplished again. I want to be seen as the star I was when I was younger in my family's eyes instead of the dumb teen who's always hiding. I just want to feel special to them again. I wish they didn't put so much pressure on me to not only be a mother to 5 kids that aren't even mine but to be the face of my family. I'm sick of it. I'm tired I want to rest without being constantly interrupted, I want to talk about things that mean a lot to me in front of family without being mocked. I just wanted to be treated like I'm normal

why can't i cry? usually every night i always cry . . .

POV: your tried but you won’t let yourself sleep because theirs no point…you’ll just wake up again…

it’s been a while since i’ve cried to myself, i just want to feel again

the number one words that family and friends say to me is "ur not trying hard enough" "well then try harder" "you can help by staying away from us" and "ur not good enough"

I'm not good enough... I never was. No matter how hard I try.

I've heard my cousins and aunts talking about me and how I'm going to die alone and how it was all my fault.

Once I had a fight with my abusive father, he slapped me in the back of my head and screamed at me. I started to cry due to trauma, he told me to shut the f up or he'll give me something to cry about. I ran to my room and balled my eyes out. My dad sexually assaulted me multiple times and abused me, I get bullied at school ect. I was about to take my life when a stranger messaged me, i had told him WHAT happened and he sat there and comforted me, and stopped me from doing it. 4. Month later we're closer then ever<3 still have my father and bullying but at least i have him💙

in the middle of class, checking your grade for the finals assignment you were really proud of and realising you didn't do well. you have not lived up to your own expectations. not even only other people's expectations. worst of all, you lost grades on the parts you were most confident about. and you're trying and failing in not wetting your mask or sniffling too loud. I might sound dramatic or embarrassing but that's just how I am I guess. I just can't put things into proper words.

Will I ever be pretty enough? Will I ever be good enough as they say? I know that everyone is worthy of love and that everyone is good enough but I can't think the same for me....I don't know why

Nah cause I’m feeling so jealous of my classmate. I’ve always been known for being super talented at singing but not until she came. Nobody recognizes me for my talent anymore. I’m never being chosen to perform anymore. I’m working so hard to surpass her man. I know I’m being so childish but it’s hard for me to not envy her. I hate her so much, but she’s such a nice person. When she was chosen to perform for the school, my mom was like “I’m not surprised. They’re choosing the best from each class”. I wanted to cry so bad :)

why are the things I really like not fun anymore, why don't I have friends, why do I have these scars, why arent I good at the things I used to be really good at, why are things going bye so fast, why cant I cry...

POV: People always misunderstand you and make you feel like trash