Grieving your 'old self' in DPDR & Existential Anxiety recovery | How to deal with it?

I know that in the beginning, it feels like life will never feel or be normal again, but it will. I was at a point where I genuinely never thought I could recover. I was suicidal and just could not see myself ever getting better. Some of the thoughts I had were horrific, and I was in a constant state of fear and anxiety for months and months, but I can genuinely say now that I am the happiest I have ever been. Living felt like a chore, and every day was just about surviving until the next. Genuinely, the key to getting out of all of this is to just reduce your anxiety. At least for me, this is what I needed to do. I was in a horribly toxic relationship, and this caused so much of my anxiety and existential OCD to flare up. Try to look at your life and identify if there is anything that is keeping you in a constant state of stress and anxiety. Don't fear the DPDR and the existential thoughts. You need to realize that you are looking at everything from a point of fear, so of course, everything seems scary, even things that shouldn't be or arent necessarily scary. The DPDR is an anxiety mechanism that is there to protect you, as strange as it sounds, so try to make friends with it and try to thank it for protecting you. Stay off of Reddit and Quora and everything like that, as it is just full of negativity. If you think about it, once people recover, they are not going to go on Quora and Reddit and spread the good news. People only turn to those websites for help when things are really bad, so of course, it's full of scary questions and experiences, and not much positivity. Once I recovered, I never went onto Quora or Reddit to share my success story because I genuinely just never thought about DPDR and existential OCD anymore. I still think about the universe and existence now, but in a different light. I find it so beautiful, and I am no longer scared of it. You will come out of this stronger and so much more appreciative of everything since you have been going through literal hell for however long. Life is full of so many beautiful things, don't let your fear take that away. I know it is so hard, but you need to keep living life as normally as you can with the DPDR, don't give it so much attention and credit. I promise you every single one of you can and will recover. Yes, I still think about death and things like that sometimes, but it really is not that scary once you're not constantly in a state of anxiety and fear. You got this! Just hold on and watch Robin's videos, they were instrumental in helping me.

A huge part of my healing journey from DPDR, panic attacks and intrusive thoughts was finding some kind of spiritual or universal trust and telling it “I can’t do this anymore, I give all of this pain to you and open myself completely to be at peace. I trust you”. my past self did not have any ability to trust wholly or completely. I now TRUST we are here with a purpose even if we cant understand why, it finds us. I don’t need to do or be anything beyond my true self, but when I was constantly afraid I couldn’t see that. I thought I’d lost my mind and I would never feel any peace. My purpose used to exist and end with my own thoughts (that sense of control). Now I know that I’m not only my mind and the scary thoughts hold less and less power. Being hyper aware, and the horrific terror of DPDR and depression have exposed me to so much change but there were times I truly wanted to give up. Medication and attending therapy has also been so crucial in helping me realize depression and anxiety are often anger with no where to go that hasn’t been addressed and has turned inward on ourselves. Especially when it’s not healthily expressed and released I’m still very scared sometimes, will have intrusive thoughts and no hope but I have more to fight for than to fear. To anyone reading this I PROMISE this is not the end, you will feel peace again and I’m so proud of you. You’re so powerful even if you’re illness lies to you and says you’re not.

I come across this after crying hysterically, looking back and wish I didn't know what I know now. It's tough. Haven't been sleeping well the past few weeks. It's painful 🥺

Thank you it was helpful ❤

Everything you said, Robin makes sense and makes the journey easier. Thank you

I loved this thank you Robin. I obsess over my past self and my mistakes that led me here but there was a lot in my life that I was not addressing. Since this, despite feeling hopeless I have become more open with people and done things my past self wouldn’t have felt capable of doing. I can’t wait to enjoy the good things I have gotten on the other side. You helped me realise too that I had control issues and that I need to build strength in myself that I usually rely on other people for. ❤️

Grazie Robin!!!❤ Sooo helpful...❤ This video was exactly what I was looking for!❤ 🎉 Much love Alissa

I have a question, i had a panic attack at work and after that i've had dpdr and now im 5 month in and i started to feel concected and i can almost live like a human again and but i still have a lot of eye floaters visual snow when i look at the sky or a white wall for an example and the 2d vision. My eyes is always so tiered and its almost hurting behind and around the eye. Is this still dpdr or something after because its so annoying. Or is this somekind of after effect from month of really hard dpdr ? Does this go away aswell. Im almost zooning out just to give my eyes some rest? I would be really glad if someone thats been thru this answered. Hope you have an amazing day :) and for everyone thats suffers i will get better i promise i went thru hell and back i feels like and im finally to feel like a human <3

Hi Robin, a question, did you have cases of people that strugled with dpdr 24/7? cause like i have it constantly 24/7 in the background my dpdr, and my emotional numbness is all day present, maybe the problem is that im 24/7 focusing on my dpdr symptoms and in my emotional numbness? thanks you

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