Why Don't You Enjoy Anything? (anhedonia)

Literally EVERYTHING feels like work I’d rather stay in bed

Don’t feel like sleeping, don’t feel like going out, socialising, working, hoping, wishing, wanting anything

I literally don't enjoy anything anymore and haven't for years. Seeing friends puts me on edge, shows and movies don't hold my focus, my hobbies bore me. Nothing has helped from therapy to SSRIs, benzos, and stimulants. Every day it feels like I'm just waiting and I don't know what for.

I always grew up wondering why would anyone hurt themselves? Me as an adult is now fully comprehensive as to the WHY

I can't even bring myself to watch my favorite shows on Netflix anymore because it feels like a chore. I've felt like this for months. :(

Life was better in childhood, entering into adulthood has made my life hell with mental issues

Bliss of childhood is one of the best things a person can experience. It's limited and when it's gone, you'll only be jealous of it.

I can tell you exactly why it happens. When the pain gets too great we turn off the pain receptors. Unfortunately those are also the parts of the brain that feel the fun. we kill our brain to save ourselves.

I think my lack of interest in various things is/was caused by experiencing a lot of failure,disappointment and anxiety.

The way I like to describe it is like when you have a cold that takes out your sense of taste, and then you go to have your favorite meal. The disappointment is almost painful.

I’m sitting here crying that I found people that feel the way I do. I feel so validated. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.❤️

Literally everything I loved: music (I have a whole degree in it and it's my career field), painting, crafting, playing with makeup, video games, watching shows, spending time with family... feels so hollow now unless I'm already up and dressed and highly stimulated. Having 8 autoimmune diseases doesn't help either because the chronic pain and fatigue are hard to separate from the depression. The chemo, the procedures, the constant doctor visits, the mounds of medication/supplements, and the BILLS MY GOD (not to mention the unsolicited recommendations of essential oils and other "cures")... Depression alone was one thing, but depression BECAUSE you're chronically ill is a completely different monster. I don't want to die- I want to WANT to live.

I have felt this way for YEARS and had no idea that there was a name for it or that it was more then just feeling blah and depressed.

This happened to me after I finished chemotherapy. I went to Niagra falls for the first time and felt "It's just water".

“It can and will get better” I really needed to hear that I’ve been feeling really hopeless

I used to love drawing, painting and just art overall. There were times when i would paint for 6-7 hours without a break like not even a toilet break or water break. I used to get so immersed in it and everything i loved. I used to love to dance and sing and now i think painting is too much work. Today i just painted for 5 mins and procrastinated the whole day. I just dont feel like myself anymore.

Anhedonia literally robbed me of everything I once was. I used to have engaging conversations, interests, and emotions and now there's nothing. I'm so tired of living in this grey world.

I feel like everything i try to get into i get bored of really quickly and drop because it's not fun

I want my older version back ,the person i used to be competitive,cheerful, enthusiastic .

if ur reading this i wish you love, fulfillment, and joy. nobody deserves to feel like this. i hope you figure things out and find something meaningful again beyond all this mess ❤️