why i finally deleted instagram | the diary of an ex-influencer | unscripted - part 2

thank you all for being here with me! 🕊️

When you're called no one will get that message but you. I needed that. Thank you.

Thank you sharing your journey and struggles. You are going to help so many with your testimony!

Hearing your story made me cry. I suffer from bipolar II and ADHD.Despite my diagnosis, I was over functioning at work and in my personal life.I had low self esteem and was a constant people pleaser. I was constantly extending myself to help others to my own detriment. I would tell people in my life that I was stressed and they would still ask me to do things for them. Last year I started experiencing panic attacks. My chest would get so tight that I thought I was having a heart attack. I would get to work and just start crying. I went to the cardiologist and after I found out I was physically healthy right there and then I knew I had to make a change. I have therapist and intake meds. I am getting better at establishing boundaries and I focus on my peace. Thank you for sharing your story. There are so many of us that can relate.

Kish. My sweet Kish! When you left social media, I prayed for you, I cried for you, I would be up in the wee hours of the morning praying for you. I asked God why I carried you in my heart so??? I’ve never met you in person, just experienced your sweet spirit through social media. I constantly prayed for your mind, your mental health, that’s what I was led to pray for. I’m so happy you are still here. I have an outfit I bought from Giti because I seen you in it. Everytime I look in the closet and see that outfit I think of you . Your testimony is gonna carry so many other people through!!! Thank you for sharing. ❤❤❤

Wow. This was heavy and made me tear up. You were definitely one of my top fav influencers and to see you be vulnerable about what you went through has really touched me as a person who also has anxiety. More than anything I’m so glad you’re better and you guys did what was best for you. You definitely put your mental health first and I am so happy and proud of you. Your testimony really blessed me and I needed this. I pray God continues to keep you healthy mentally and physically. 💚

I followed u on Instagram, and felt something in your post , I'm a empath as well took depr meds in my 20s.... I've been looking on every app trying to find u to see if u were ok.. u may have not been seen or heard but I tell u I definitely see you.. thanks for being here and being transparent.. God guided me here for a reason..Thank you 🙏🏾🌷

I enjoyed every second of part 1 & 2!! Thanks for sharing your story!!

This is the first time I come across your channel. I want to thank you so much for being so honest about your journey. This is what both my son and I have been going through and you have definitely touched me. Thank you!!

All I can say is I’m not a Christian anymore Christianity contributed to my mental health struggles because of how things are structured. Yeah I use to say I have a relationship with God but in reality I didn’t . I feel more like myself away from organized religion. Christians see God as a Santa . He is only here to give gifts and that’s it . But I can say I definitely resonate with your story so much ! I’m dealing with all of this now at almost 40 years old . I’ve been in therapy for 3 years and I know I’m still healing so much but it hurts . I do feel so lost but I’m trying to trust in the process. Yeah I do run from myself and my past , yea I stopped people please habits a few years ago but it was definitely something I did all the time to keep people happy with me . I feel like at 40 why am I still dealing with this ! I’m tired . Sis thank you for being so transparent this was definitely for me . I’m up at 7:30am trying to get ready for a job I don’t want to go to just to make money . Ugh thanks sis again I wish you so much success and blessings

Kish, oh my gosh...you don't even understand how I feel right now. I wrote a comment on here about how I was waiting for the premiere, but I forgot to watch because I had a TERRIBLE day today. I went through a Rollercoaster of emotions and motions and phases....it was so crazy. So it's crazy how now I'm back home, and winding down for the night, I saw this video in my algorithm and I was reminded that it dropped. And so, the TIMING of me being able to watch it is still so Divine. Thank you SO MUCH for sharing. Based on the title, this video is NOT what I expected it to be (in a good way!). Just like your poetry spoke to me, you literally described all the ways I tend to feel. And I feel less crazy, I feel like I'm not alone. I FELT as if you were talking directly to me, or like you were reading from MY journal! (Minus the influencer part). I'm so grateful that I found your channel, your sharing is so brave and vulnerable and it gives me hope. I got rid of all my social media too. This is actually a secret account of mine that no one knows about. It's so much more peaceful over here in this algorithm. I still got a long way to go, but I'm happy to be progressing. This video offered me so much relief. Blessings to you on your journey! ❤❤❤❤

I teared up listening to this. I can relate to so much of what you said. I’m glad you stopped running and came home to yourself. Love and light to you. I am working on this now❤

This was outstandingly BEAUTIFUL!! Thank you for sharing your story and helping us all!! 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉

Thank you for sharing! I followed you on ig and you were my inspo to start my loc journey. I wondered what happened but I had no idea the battle you were facing. I struggle with mental health as well. You are more relatable than I realized. Thanks for being so transparent and authentic. You got this!

thank you so much for sharing your story. It really moved me and helped me learn a little bit about depression and some of its signs! Thank you!

Very moving!! Peace ans blessings to you! Thanks so much for sharing 💜

Thank you for sharing. This vid has allowed to understand some things about depression and anxiety. Wishing you and your husband peace and progress on your path in life. Time to confront myself as the only nemesis I have know and addicted to.

Wow, this touched my heart.... i really did miss your presence on social media, but i understand.... keep being strong, and keep taking care of yourself. Thank you so much for sharing.

General statement, mostly to commenters: Medication is an important process in probably most lives of people who suffer from mood/personality disorders (I'm bipolar). It's important that we are cautious about how we speak about mental illness and treatment, as replacing medical treatment with religion can make things worse, and has historically brought people to their demise. People with physical ailments have to take drugs for the remainder of their lives and depend on them. Why not people with mental illness? No, drugs should not be pushed on patients in excess, but with good research and a caring psychiatrist (I'm lucky to have one!) finding the right treatment can change your life. And yeah, drug efficacy changes and you have to start again sometimes. But we will be ok!

Thank you so much for sharing your story! So many people experience these same feelings, but are afraid to speak out about it for fear of judgement. ❤