I Relapsed on Alcohol for 6 Chaotic Weeks (The Brutal Truth)

I started drinking since my teenage, got addicted to alcohol. Spent my whole life fighting alcohol addiction. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Got diagnosed with OCD. Not until my husband recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 6 years totally clean. Much respect to mother nature the great magic shrooms.

Stop saying im never drinking again.that just puts pressure on and sets you to fail.just get up every day and say im not drinking today .and when you go up to bed at night give yourself a smile in the mirror and say well done x

Well done for putting yourself out there. Anyone who is a true drinker will understand the pain of relapse and the guilt and the shame because you thought you knew better. Its a journey and I hope you learn something each time you endure your lows.

i am six and a half years past my last whiskey sip. Once you're really on the bottom and have enough, you will stop. Some people just need to sit on the bottom longer than others. The decision needs to be final and there has to be no more excuses. Pain is a part of life that one has to accept and stop running away from.

Alcohol tricks us the first 3 drinks gives us ease and comfort. The the shit hits the fan chasing that over and over and over 😢

thinking you are better off drunk around your kids because you'll be in a better mood than sober is an issue.

Man, thanks for your honesty. Never quit quitting. Dust yourself off, be kind to yourself, give it time, you've got a brain with 30+ days of drinking so give it a few weeks for your brain to return to normal. Like you said, eat good/exercise/sleep and after a week you should feel better. Learn from this - look into your mind in the days leading up to going away and find out why you thought it would be ok to drink. Relapses start way before your first sip. It sounds like you thought it would be ok to moderate, which is a hard lesson that we need to learn that we cannot ever have ANY alcohol. I'm 604 days sober here, couldn't go more than a week without getting wasted back when I drank. You'll be ok mate, you'll learn from this - I promise.

I couldn’t stop either. I’ve been sober 9 years. We admitted we are powerless over alcohol in our lives, have become unmanageable. There are people wait you for you to help.

It’s ok dude One day sober is way better then 38 days drinking Just keep trying and don’t give up on yourself Personally for me one month wouldn’t be enough time I had to do 4 months to have a total reset After those 4 months I had a few drinks and drinks didn’t taste good at all and it even wasn’t that much fun to drink like it use to

This feels too real man. The thank you for sharing your journey the ups and downs. I’m routing for you, I hit 8 months sober today and am so thankful for others putting themselves out there. It’s helped me a ton. Get back on the horse! You got this :)

The worst thing for me though is the come down when sober, I just have a few days of feeling depressed and it takes me a long time to get feeling good again. Then when I feel good I want to drink again because I convince myself it's fine, it isn't ruing my life, I can do a single drink. I even started drinking expensive alcohol convincing myself that I'll for quality of not quantity.... But that just made me broke lol.

You got this buddy ! I relapsed after two years sober, took awhile, but I ended up in the same “shit pile” that I was in before. Respect from Canada, I’m 45, I just tell my friends and family, “no whiskey till I’m 60”, one day at a time ! I would say good luck, but it’s not luck, I tell myself “I don’t know if I’ll drink again, but I know that today I’m not going to drink”, helps me.

I'm 7 years sober . For me sobriety was not a possibility until I realized that I could never have a moderate relationship with alcohol. That my addiction was bigger than myself and out of my control and always would be. Good luck Brother

Andy Ramage (look him up for some quitting motivation) mentioned something like quitting is generally like an upside down corkscrew, it takes a few times going around before you're out. So basically what you're doing now is normal, take solace in that. Also, the fact that you're questioning your lifestyle means you're actually on the right path. So you're in the process, just gotta keep going until you're free :) I'm the same age and dealt with the same stuff as you. I'm on 2 months without alcohol - feeling much better about myself, working out daily, and appreciating things in life that previously I just overlooked. It's a natural high man I'm telling you. You've got this brother.

I know you're going through the struggle of relapse but after being a daily drinker for years YOU are motivating me. I want to get away from this shit, I know for sure that you can, and you're helping me know that I can too.

My father was an Alcoholic and I watched him struggle for years to stop. I vowed never to drink, I am scared I would be the same.

My heart goes out to you man. Your story reminds me so much of my own. The fact of the matter is that alcoholism isn't a self-improvement problem - it's a disease, and there is no amount of self-will or drive or reminding yourself of your convictions, etc., that can end it, because addiction has access to those very same parts of yourself, and hijacks them. It wasn't until I really surrendered that it got better, and surrender meant not just admitting I was an alcoholic, but asking for help. I had to ask for help from other people, especially other people who were in recovery.

Get yourself to an AA meeting ASAP, you don't need to instantly get a sponsor or do the steps, but just listen and tell your story. There is no rhyme nor reason why it works, but identifying with a fellow sick and suffering alcoholic, or decade long sober alcoholics does wonders. It's free and only costs your time, your current trajectory will cost you more than money ever could.

Your honesty is far reaching, thank u ❤

Stay strong brother relapsing is part of the journey sadly nearly all of us have to reach our rock bottom before we stop I’m a year clean and I understand how hard it is