Apollo Legend Suicide Note

On December 30th 2020 Apollo Legend posted a video on his secondary channel Apollo Live. This video was simply titled "READ DESCRIPION, VERY IMPORTANT" and left the following message in the description.
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I love you all.

Thank you to DarkViper and EZScape for giving me the final push that I needed.

I tried to hold myself back in the video but I can't help it. People have no clue what I deal with everyday. When I was about five years old my dad threw me on the ground and covered my mouth and nose to where I couldn't breathe and screamed into my face because I wanted to play some game that he was playing and that's how he treated us everyday. I couldn't even tell that story without crying until I was 18 or so. I have scoliosis which causes my back, hips and shoulders to ache constantly. I'm sick everyday, I throw up often. My medicine makes me vomit but then if I don't take it I vomit. My body is completely useless, I can't do anything. I'm completely out of my mind, all my thoughts are so painful and aggravating and because I'm mentally ill everything I say online gets used to make me look like a bad person. I'm not a bad person, I'm under incredible stress. Try living with this much pain and let's see the decisions you make. That's only the stuff I'm comfortable talking about, there is more that's even worse.

The speedrun community are such hypocrites. They pretend to care so much about everyone's feelings and then in the same video they call you retarded scum, I know I exposed people for cheating but I never said anything like that. They tell me they agree with me privately and then
publicly betray me. If I complained about my life all the time then I bet they'd see me as relatable but because I try to push through it and act normal, they hate me.

My greatest thanks to Tom, Jonas, Nick, Brad, Sonfloro, Tipster and Keem for being great friends even if I didn't always give you a reason.